I’ll come right to the point. I have been single all my life. I have been a single mother since 1982: my oldest child is 24 and my youngest is 5. My relationships always end and they have all been violent or unrequited/one sided. When will I ever meet a good man that wants to marry me? I’m getting desperate. I don’t want it to be like this but time is flying!
I’ll come right to the point as well. When you have a pattern in relationships that is this profound and longstanding, the chances that you are going to wake up one day to find it magically resolved is zero. You can compare it to being an alcoholic, or to being obese, or to being friendless, or to whatever. There is no passive solution to something like this. Life circumstances of this type only resolve when the person suffering commits to change and then follows through.
So you have two choices here. You can either leave things the way they are, or you can be a hero, willing to fight for a better life. And since there is free will, I have no idea what you’re going to do. So consequently I have no idea when or if you will ever meet a “good man who wants to marry you”.
It is possible, though. You’re only doomed if you continue to make the same choices you’ve always made. I’d say get a therapist, sit down and tell them this:
“I’m in my forties and I have always chosen lousy horrible men. Please help me stop.”
Because like you say, time is flying. And the current Saturn transit to your planets in Aquarius beg you to take responsibility and do something (the right thing) about your life.