belle write on Intense Suffering Unbeknownst
“Are you also the rock for people in your personal life? You definitely are on this board. I see such inner strength, which might draw people to you for their comfort. On the other side, when people are looking to you for their emotional needs, they might be looking at only the strength and not wanting to see the pain. Who heals the shaman?”
belle, I don’t know that I am a rock for people. For some I am but what I am universally, is a source of energy. People can call me or they can come to this blog and get a hit. There is always, always something here.
I am strong internally. I do think it’s rare that people look at my pain. But some do, some of the time.
I’m shocked and grateful when it happens. Stupefied really but it doesn’t really matter.
There are times when I desperately need help and another person’s energy but these times are infrequent. I am mostly self-sustaining. I have been since I was very young.
On the healing question, I don’t see myself as a shaman but can tell you straight out, I do all this work for myself as much as I do for anyone else. I do it because if I don’t do it (serve) the suffering would be unbearable. I don’t even like to think about it, it would be that bad.