Lately I’ve run into a number of people, both clients and people I know personally, who are having Saturn transit their natal Chiron. This is an incredibly painful transit, and there’s very little written about it. That’s too bad, because it has the potential to both harm and heal depending on how you respond to it.
Chiron represents our wound. It’s the place where we’re always hurting, always vulnerable. It’s also the place that teaches us to heal ourselves and others. Now mix that energy with Saturn, which points out our inadequacies and makes us feel small and lowly. That is a recipe for serious pain.
Inevitably, something comes along that triggers the original trauma and brings Chiron issues to the forefront. I have seen people having this transit withdraw, becoming lost in their internal world, ruminating on their own weakness or on the unfairness of it all. I have also seen people swing the other way, lashing out at perceived slights and being completely unable to hear what anyone else is saying.
This transit brings with it a tendency to search for something to blame for the pain. Saturn rules responsibility and karma, after all. But the problem is that Chiron rules old trauma, the kind that is with us no matter where we go or who we meet. So while there may be blame to spread around, it’s usually not helpful. Either the person has to go back to childhood and revisit those experiences, or they have to find a way to recreate the situation in their present life so they have someone to lash out against.
And all that is understandable! Bringing these two energies together can feel unbearable. But there is a better way.
The truth is, we are all responsible for our wounds. I don’t mean that we create them or that we aren’t sometimes victimized. We aren’t to blame for our wounds. But once they exist, we are the stewards of our own pain. We own it, and we get to decide how to handle it.
And that’s where Saturn comes in. Saturn urges us to take responsibility for the role our wounds play in our lives. He pushes us to decide how much power our pain should have over the way we structure our lives, and makes it very clear that the decision is ours alone.
Do you want to stay mired in pain? Do you want to be debilitated? Do you want to keep recreating those painful situations over and over hoping something will be different this time? Do you want to blame yourself and feel unworthy?
Or do you want to thrive? Do you want to get in touch with your wound to create real, lasting healing? Do you want to heal others through sharing your pain and making sure you never inflict the same pain on others? Do you want to be free?
Saturn teaches us that while our wounds are always with us, they don’t have to define us. They don’t have to have the final say in our lives. Instead we can own them, create good boundaries, and take responsibility for ourselves. And that is how we find our freedom.
Have you had Saturn transit your Chiron? What happened?