Most of the people I know are either afraid of death or more commonly, they just don’t want to do it. They don’t want to die because they feel there is something they have to do, or they worry how their children will fare without them or in some cases, they just plain like being alive.
While I understand all this, I just don’t feel these things personally or at least I didn’t feel them until I had children. Once I had children I did feel a responsibility to them but some years ago when Pluto transited my Sun, I did all this writing and became released from that.
I literally wrote thousands of pages and at some point I realized I was done. I felt I had created a legacy akin to what my grandfather, Henry did when he died leaving a carbon copy of every letter he ever wrote over a 50 year period. There! If I want to know who my grandfather was; if I want to access him, whatever I am looking for is in there somewhere.
Having created a similar resource for my children (which included my peaceful thoughts on dying), I realized I have no anxiety whatsoever about dying which was a great relief and this status has held since (5 years +).
This means that whatever I produce now is gravy from my perspective. In short, as long as I am here I will write stuff for whatever people can glean from it but I do feel my dues are paid.
I also feel reconciled with whatever I have been paid (or not paid) in compensation real and ethereal. This gives me tremendous feelings of tranquility and I consider it achievement on a grand scale.
Are you satisfied with your accomplishments? Also important, do you think you ever will be?