I’m going to the doctor today. I was looking at my progressed chart – I have a packed 6th house. No wonder my life is so focused on work and health. I looked at my upcoming solar return to see if there might be some relief. It tells the same story.
I have always been hard to diagnose. I give this to the strong Saturn Neptune signature in my chart. The current Saturn Neptune square isn’t helping. I try very hard to communicate clearly but I sound confused, even to myself. Seriously, I don’t blame the doctor. If you give me your chart with all the symbols turned upsidedown and backwards, it will hinder my ability to read it!
Today I hope to find out just how crippled I can expect to be and how soon. They have enough info now, I think they should have some idea the course I am on.
I wonder if I have surgery on my neck and on my hip and on my knee and on my….if there is any hope I might be able to walk around another ten years. Five years? Or am I in denial?
It so confusing. They have grave concerns about drug addiction around here, but tend to want to treat a person like me with drugs. It’s easiest, I guess. And cheapest. But if I take them, I feel they will cloud my thinking and ultimately disable me. Clinically speaking, I am already disabled, but you know what I mean. I have a job I can do.
I can’t imagine not working. I am going to try to tell the doctor, I want to work into my 80’s if I live that long. I’ll need my mind to do it.
I have a lot of luck and grace in my life. I am hoping it kicks in today when I try to talk to my doctor and he tries to understand.