The soldier finished my book about a month ago, something he resisted doing for months and months. There were a lot of things we couldn’t discuss because of the delay but now all restrictions have been lifted. Saturn Opposite Neptune And The Composite Chart
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He’s asked questions since as they’ve emerged. Invariably the answers are not what he anticipates. He’s just flat out surprised so he takes new information and I don’t know what he does. He reevaluates things I suppose.
“I don’t know what to say,” he said. “Your life is so extraordinary. It’s an extraordinary story.”
“Yeah, that’s what I’ve heard. You can’t tell when it’s you. When I started writing stuff online people would gasp and I had no idea why. I still don’t really understand it and I’ve pretty much given up trying. It’s just too hard for me to try to see another person’s view of me or of my life.”
“Uh huh.”
“See, I think my life is normal and other people do not. So whose reality do I choose? If everyone thinks my life is extraordinary… if they deem it this way but I think its normal, what do I do? Do I take their word for it? Well there are so many of them saying just that I have to sort of take their word for it but on the other hand, deep down this is almost impossible. It’s like stepping into a bubble someone else says is there. My life is extraordinary? Ha ha ha. To me it’s normal but I will try to pretend I see it the way you do. See what I mean? It’s all a big unreal game to me. Here Elsa. Step into this other dimension where your regular life is now extraordinary.”
“I see.”
“Yeah. So okay if you think that. You can judge my life to be that but I can’t explain it the way you can explain yours. I feel like thrown dice. I have no idea why I landed in this life… apparently right out of the chute. I will say it’s a rude shock though. I have spent my whole life looking around thinking; you’ve got to be kidding me. And this is exactly what I think when someone says my life is extraordinary. Yeah? You’ve got to be kidding me. And I don’t think there is anyway to resolve this. I just don’t have the glasses the rest of you use.”
Does your view of things jibe with the people around you? Do you have a Saturn/Neptune exchange in your chart?
I consider myself, in general, more positive than a lot of people in my life (NOT that I am saying the people in my life are negative people, no way).
In general, I don’t plan for the future, I just think ‘it’ll all work out’ and it does…but I have attracted serious types who worry about stuff I don’t. So, 90% of the time, I feel my view isn’t like the people around me, but they choose me to be in their life because of this.
Saturn and Neptune are part of a Grand Fire Trine in my chart.
Not only are Saturn & Neptune sextile in my chart but both my Sun & Moon are trine Uranus (11th House to Uranus in 7th). It’s only been the last 16+ yrs that my life even remotely resembles some mainstream. And I’m always encouraging others to live their lives in a manner that suits them rather then following someone else’s script.
And I was about the age you are now when my life became more settled . . . 🙂 Before that the only reason I wasn’t totally outside the Pale was because people saw me as an ARTIST . . . therefore it was OK for me to be an eccentric. duh!
I’m still building up to the day I can tell people I’m a writer without feeling to I have to explain myself. Don’t know what the big deal is for me. I need to snap out of it!
What is normal anyway? By whose reality are we going to define “normal” as?
Saturn square Neptune here. So many realities and so little time. I’ve been an artist of all sorts: graphic, digital, music, design, writing and teaching.
Extraordinary? Yes, Elsa is extraordinary. However so many people are too…many of my friends are extraordinary – diverse in backgrounds, life experiences, world views and talents. Celebrate your extraordinaryness today!