A week ago, I wrote about needing to find my way back to the fringe. The margins of life! I needed to take a giant step and I did it. I’m now dealing with the fallout.
I actually not dealing with much fallout, because it’s not important when scaled against the clarity of my vision and my dedication to what is important.
I did have an older man, I respect (Saturn) tell me today, he would be disappointed in me if I quit this or that. I felt his remark but he doesn’t yet know my reasons for my actions.Eventually he will know what happening here. I am pretty sure this will mark the end of his disappointment. Between now and then, faith is the best play for me. Saturn in Sagittarius. He’s only got part of the story. There is more to learn.
That’s what I am doing now. I am studying. I am studying every day and every night.
When I was a child I studied cards. I played cards / solitaire, two, three, four hours a day for several years until I was pretty much merged with the deck(s).
I studied astrology in a similar fashion. I’m pretty sure I read every astrology book every written at that time. I went as far as to sit in the library to read books borrowed from libraries around the country, too rare to leave the premises. It was just something I felt I had to do at the time. I did not plan to be an astrologer!
Next, I studied religion. When Saturn was in my 9th house, I went to RCIA. With Saturn in Sagittarius I joined another religious class. I still attend that class, but this last gasp of Saturn in Sagittarius has tasked me with learning something I never imagined would touch me.
Boy is it humbling. You would think, after all I’ve been through and all the people I have worked with, I would know that anything can happen to anyone. I would think that about me, but it’s incorrect. Because the unthinkable has happened and now I’m studying again. And I am compelled.
One thing Saturn transits do is they make things real clear. What’s clear to me now, is I have to study this other subject. And if things or people or volunteering / service stand in the way of this, it is up to me to prioritize. I need this education.
I know I am right because when I study, I learn. The things I learn, help me almost immediately.
That’s a big sign right there. I am not studying for some future benefit. I am studying because without the education, I’m just not going to make it from here to there. And if there is one thing I learned by studying religion, it’s that God wants me to make it from here to there!
Years ago, before I became Catholic, I used to tell people (and I wrote about this), that they should ask the universe (who I now see as God) to show them the path to their highest good. Jupiter. I always added this; if the universe complies and that path is shown to you, you’ve got to commit to get on it (and stay on it). Saturn.
This is what’s happened. The path has been shown to me and why I might fail at being humble, I do not fail at staying on paths, once I know they have my name on them. And this is why I retreated…so I could progress.
If you want instruction on Saturn’s transit through Sagittarius, here it is: A Real Education
Can you relate to any of this?