I am getting in a lot of trouble writing about this stuff, but I’m going to continue, at least for now. I feel like I must.
I prompted to write today because someone commented on an old Saturn Neptune post where I explained why I failed to marry my husband back when we were teenagers. It’s a insane story because he proposed to me and I accepted…but then I had to renege!
Not only did I renege, I refused to tell him why I would not marry him. I would only quote this tagline from a TV commercial at the time. “Tucson is an Estes Home town”. I am not kidding about this.
“But why don’t you want to get married?”
“Because, Tucson is an Estes Home town.” I said this with my total poker face. I could not think of anything else to say.
He asked a few times but when he got the same answer he quit asking. You think this would have broken us up, but no. See the Neptune here? Foggy! He spent the twenty-plus years we were apart, thinking about this.
In reality, a psychopath was to blame. Something was supposed to happen but it was cruelly stopped:
Now, if you read that you may imagine how important these concepts are to me. YOU DO NOT MESS PEOPLE UP WHEN THEY ARE TRYING TO LIVE.
But now I see what was done to me is being done to every child in the world. It really does enrage me because I understand, deeply, what it feels like to be taken off track and lose your life in this way.
That’s why I wrote this:
Kids need time, space and freedom so they can find themselves and the path that’s right for them. You want to be less influenced.
“Self-actualization” is a term that was used some years ago. People don’t need to be told how to feel, they need to just FEEL. And find their own flow and their own ideas and connection to the spiritual world.
If you succeed in this endeavor, you become very powerful. Psychopaths hate this one trick.
My mind is blown. I have Saturn opposite Neptune natally. A few weeks ago, I read I’ll be having Saturn square my Neptune and what I’ve read about it has me spooked. I’ve been dealing with health issues for about ten years. And of course some of it is psychosomatic, but when you survive cancer, every little twinge you feel in your body may be a recurrence. As a Cap rising, I try to rationalise and work through my feelings, but I can be obsessive, with Moon and Pluto in the 8th. Anyway, I had been searching your sight for any alternative perspectives on Saturn and Neptune and couldn’t find much (dont know why). And then…voilà! You sent out this email today and I’ve read through all the links. I have some different perspectives now, as always, sychronistically, and for that, I am truly thankful!