Outer Planet Transit? Expect To Lose A 10-Year Chunk Of Your Life

There is such a thing as losing a ten year chunk of your of life. This is more common than people realize. It can manifest in a number of ways…

You may marry poorly or take the wrong job. You can get drunk for ten years or just go through a time that is so out of character for you it can be seen as something akin to temporary insanity.

As for the astrology, people with stelliums or a good number of their planets in aspect are probably more likely to have a period like this in their life. Basically an outer planet transit comes along and whoops! The person joins a cult!

The majority of people I know have had a period like this (myself included).  For the people who would say no time is ever wasted, I can see that perspective, but it is not helpful in the near term for those who wake up one day with awareness they’re on top the wrong mountain or have driven themselves right into a wall.

I wrote this ten years ago. Look at all the comments and the variety of the stories.  You’ve really got to be patient with people sometimes. They can utterly transform themselves and their lives… but have a crazy period in this process.

Have you ever lost 10 years of your life? Tell us!

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Outer Planet Transit? Expect To Lose A 10-Year Chunk Of Your Life — 147 Comments

  1. I did, to depression and anxiety. Basically my entire 30s.

    I’ve never been so glad to turn 40, believe you and me. This past year was a halfway-house period for me, and I have a couple more big fears to face down, but I feel like I can do it. I know I can.

    My future looks bright, feels bright, like a shiny chicken.

  2. feel like i’m just starting.
    i’m cracking again. but i think it’s just a shell falling off.
    but i haven’t felt this alive in awhile. maybe ever.

    i spent sixteen years (at least) too stuck to an idea i shouldn’t have. though i learned a huge amount from it, i let it get wrapped up too deep in my head. took it too far, i guess. have spent awhile untangling myself of what doesn’t make sense to me.
    expect that will continue for some time yet.

  3. I’m now facing the consequences of having made some choices over the past few years that I am greatly regretting. I had a fantastic opportunity and I feel like I blew it. It’s not too late to make a course correction, but I’m feeling very stuck.

  4. Yes – married poorly, lost 10 years. I console myself by saying that I had to learn a lesson about undoing some damage from my childhood that I might never have learned otherwise. Viewed that way, it’s a relief I’m still relatively young and already past that particular mistake. There are far-reaching consequences I still have to deal with, but I don’t think I could have dodged the karmic bullet, so I’m just glad I’m still here and kicking, sadder but wiser. I could have lost a lot more years in that relationship!

  5. I’ve lost at least 10 years, and am still on top of the wrong mountain, peering around for a way down, wondering if there is time to begin again. Or even a way. Sad thing is I’ve known for a long time that it was the wrong mountain.

  6. I think I’m at the tale end of the lost ten years of my life. I feel less and less lost all of the time, I suppose, but there are five years that I literally can barely remember. My mind was somewhere else entirely, and my body kept on keeping on, for what little that was worth.

  7. Hi Elsa.

    I have been reading your blog sometimes, but never left any comments, so this is the first time.
    I have loads of planets in Pisces (sun, moon, venus and mercury). So when the Pluto was in Sagitarius, my life was awful. Besides, I have natal saturn in Gemini…which did not help. I think that, to be honest, the whole thing started when Satun was transitting Pisces last time (1994/5). And I actually kind of ‘died’ when saturn and pluto were opposing in 2001, which was the culmination.
    So I think that this has been a very long death and rebirth cycle (1995 till now), which I could not live an ordinary life, and I feel that I am just coming out from it.
    Thank you for your article.

  8. Well, not ten years.. buy maybe seven or so.

    I guess that happened while Pluto in Saggitarius but specifically with Uranus (and Neptune)in Aquarius squaring my Sun.
    It all changed when Uranus entered in Pisces. I was like… wow!! WHO is THAT person??? What in the world I was thinking!!
    Now that Pluto changed to Capricorn (7th)…this is actually happening so well… working that out

  9. I lost 10 years on a dead-end job. Eight of that ten years, I was dead emotionally, life was a rut and I sort of gave up.
    I just looked at my transits during that time. Pluto was in opposition with my Mars almost entire period. And Mars is a ruler of my chart and my 6th house.

  10. The way my chart is laid out, Pluto has been transiting something or other (usually multiples) in my life pretty much since age 10 or so, and will continue to do so for the remainder of my life. Add to that that my chart is heavily Plutonian to start with and, well, losing chunks is a natural state for me. The chunks have changed over time, but it’s been one after the other, and often, like I said, many all at once.

    And that’s just Pluto, ~one~ of the outer planets. If you add the other ones, well, you can imagine.

    So, losing chunks? I know all about wipe outs, write offs, and fresh starts.

    It’s exhausting as all hell. Draining. But by now I know I can, and will, and do ~survive~ ***ANYTHING***.

    T’would be nice to get to a point of *thriving* though, not just ~surviving~.

    I’m working on that one.

    Was it Tam who said recently (something like) “You can throw all the planets you want at me, I’m not staying down?” 🙂

    I’m under the gun of a Pluto to Saturn transit right now (by conjunction), and embarking on a Pluto square to my four-part stellium that will last the better part of the next decade.

    Not letting it stop me. Quite the opposite. I’ve got irons in the fire on every major front of my life, and although I may not end up where I thought I wanted to (or where I’m aiming), by now I have full faith wherever it is I land, it will be *GOOD*.

    I’m doing my part. Hanging by the skin of my teeth, but doing my part.

  11. Yep–and even if you know the astrology behind it, it feels like you have no choice but to disconnect from things for a long time. It especially sucks when you’re younger-I’m 25, and I’m scared I’m losing my youth or something, but it feels impossible to just hang out with new people and goof off even though that’s what everyone else is doing. I hope I’ll be fun when this is all over by 30ish. But at least before then Uranus will kick in at times. That should be err…interesting.

  12. Elsa, you just took the words right out of my mouth! During Pluto in Sag (I’m a Sag), I went through the worse time in my life.

    The years that were bad were 2001-2009. I’m just right now getting back into my old self again.

    That’s 8 years!

  13. Y’know today SA Neptune goes exact on my Sun and reading this couldn’t be better timed. With Asc/Sun/Merc in Capricorn and Moon/Venus/Mars in Aquarius I feel like I’ve been happily (Pluto in Sag) wandering aimlessly (Uranus in Pisces)for so long! I’ve moved so much, and experienced a lot but have accomplished SO LITTLE! This kinda gets under my Cappy skin.

    I know that one day I will look back on this time a few years from now and wish I could have such freedoms!

    I will be hitting my first Saturn return (and natal Saturn is Conj. Pluto on my MC) around the same time Pluto crosses over my Asc and with Uranus entering Aries I have no doubt I will be completely re-born and come running out the gate!

  14. Hi all
    My first time commenting too. Just wanted to say what an amazing group you are and Elsa, not to sound shallow, but I adore you – as much as you can someone you’ve never met 🙂 You’ve all really helped me think about things more deeply and tho’ I’m an astro-novice it really helps understand whats going on.
    And yes, i too feel like I’ve wasted large parts of the past 10 years by taking a couple of very wrong turns mainly in relationships, so Pluto Sag could be guilty.
    me: Sun 21′ pisces (along with merc/venus), 0′ cancer (natally sq pluto) moon, 23′ virgo rising. I havent got the subtleties of the aspects but I know when it hurts.

  15. Oh yes. Seven years of depression and procrastination. It was probably Pluto conjunct my moon-neptune. (Though I don’t feel it’s right to blame ‘the stars’ when I could have done better myself…)

  16. Hmmm I hadn’t thought about this. I had the flu on New Years Eve 2000 and that entire year was horrible. I had a lot of problems on and off until 2004 when the bottom dropped out. So I hope this is year nine!

  17. wow! this is one of the best points I think Elsa’s ever made because it’s so true and seldom remarked on.

    I have about half my chart starting at zero fixed and continuing on through 20 degress fixed. First, it was Pluto, then Neptune, just to name the biggies.

    The Neptune and Neptune/Saturn of last year have been the longest years of my life… quicksand, all the normal day-to-day routines, gone and still gone.

    All I can say is: who knew? Though I’ve studied astrology for 20 years, I didn’t see this coming even as I watched and lived it… know what I mean?

  18. i often wake up and ask “where am i?” and “who am i?” The outer circle has sunk many of my ships … how long? since 94 … but who’s counting.

    nice to read the phenomenon is not unique.

  19. i fell into the rabbit hole of my south node for a while – south node in pisces in 8th house conjunct chiron….not 10 years – but enough

  20. I was just looking back through the late 80’s and early 90’s for transits and so forth. I don’t see any transits that would have been that tough. Still, I spent those years in a haze of booze. I’d go up to the library and check out a stack of novels, then stop off at the package store for whiskey. So I suspect it was more that I hadn’t learned to live with the dimensions of my horoscope. There’s a certain amount of escapism present. Mercury conjunct Neptune in the 3rd, and Venus conjunct Jupiter in the 12th. Plus, I have four planets in fire, including the moon. Escapism plus impulsiveness. I mean, back then, if I felt like having a drink at 10 a.m., I’d just do it. I came out of it in ’93. Sober ever since.

  21. Yes. And thank you Elsa – it does help to hear I am not alone in this feeling. I’ve been saying it for about a year now – that’s I’ve suddenly woken up and realized I’d been sleeping for more than 10…eep! gulp! could it be – possibly 14 or 15 years? It seems that my 29 year old Saturn return paved the way and then oddly it wasn’t that Pluto touched my natal chart planets – the (Big) Sleep or Petit Mort? ha… it was definitely sexual – like passion just took over, mind left the body. . . the unconsciousness began as Pluto left my natal planets (bucket pattern: Neptune, Pluto, Moon in Virgo 3rd; Mercury, Sun, Venus in 4; Neptune and Mars in Scorpio)shifted into Sagittarius midway through my fifth house. Or maybe just all that Action that I’d experienced just did me in and consciousness gave up for awhile!?

  22. Yes. And thank you Elsa – it does help to hear I am not alone in this feeling. I’ve been saying it for about a year now – that’s I’ve suddenly woken up and realized I’d been sleeping for more than 10…eep! gulp! could it be – possibly 14 or 15 years? It seems that my 29 year old Saturn return opened the way and then oddly it wasn’t that Pluto touched my natal chart planets – the (Big) Sleep or Petit Mort? . . the unconsciousness began as Pluto left my natal planets (bucket pattern: Neptune, Pluto, Moon in Virgo 3rd; Mercury, Sun, Venus in 4; Neptune and Mars in Scorpio)shifted into Sagittarius midway through my fifth house. Or maybe just all that Action that I’d experienced just did me in and what I’m thinking was being asleep was just a massive, necessary PAUSE.

    • Trying to post a reply to eldil that isn’t appearing so I will try once more and just say — Me too, eldil. Stellium in Virgo here too, also this hit me in about 95 and I also feel still blown off the path but am trying to recover step by step thru sheer effort. (And sweep off some Neptunian fog too.)

  23. I actually felt like i lost seven years of my life so i took them back. I changed my age by seven years and i live like the youth who i was suppose to be. I also feel like i’ve been in an ivory tower these last few years since I hurt my back and i’m now recovering better. I’m really becoming a whole new person realzing now that I don’t have to live my life for anyone else but me.

  24. Strawberry Fields really articulated what it was and is like for me. Plutonian stuff, plutonian life…a constant.

    The big difference today is that..well, I’m conscious. As conscious as I’ll ever be, or more conscious than I ever was. I weep for the part of me that had no idea how to comprehend (let alone accept) my Plutonian intensity, especially during my Saturn Return and really all through my 30’s. And I have so much respect for myself, knowing that I survived my lost years. I mean, I am still here, I am using it as fuel now..and that counts for something today.

    I really appreciate knowing that I am not alone. I’m grateful for the post and for all the replies here.

  25. I have to say it’s quite comforting to me to hear that something like this is quite common, because I feel “different”; removed from a “normal” life course. I’m usually not preoccupied with what’s normal, but I’m tired and I want a productive life back so that I can get settled.
    I was with a sociopath for 5 years (during which time I was raped, and he accused me of cheating because I was away overnight), broke up with him and moved across the country.
    Shortly thereafter it was discovered that I was seriously ill with a rare diagnosis. The Saturn-Pluto opposition that lasted 4 years or something in the early 00’s was on my Dcs-Asc axis square Sun/8th during that period.
    It took me some time to see a doctor because I thought I was just exhausted after the “relationship”.

    Then I was truly blessed to meet Mr. Scorpio (Sun conjunct Ceres) who did wonders for me in so many ways, and was with him for 5 years. I ended that relationship as well and we remain trusted friends. (At least I confide in him – but he’s in a relationship and doesn’t return much, which is as it should be). I don’t regret breaking up, since we’re simply too incompatible in too many areas, but the presence of someone like that is obviously sorely missed. I sound like a sponge now! But I’m not really.

    Now I’ve been single for almost two years and am fighting depression – T Saturn is on my 8th house Sun. I’ve had my heart broken by someone I thought was the love of my life. Extreme jealousy (I’ve never lost my head like that – the guy’s Sun is on my Uranus!/NN/9th) triggered a depressive episode which has lingered as next to some heavy issues I find it difficult adjusting to single life: Sun/Virgo/8th, stellium in Libra, Moon in Taurus.
    Minus the 5 years w/Scorp (2 of which I was still ill), I’ve “lost” at least 8 years. I’m 32 and haven’t finished my schooling! NN and ruler Pluto/9th;)
    Needless to say… I’m in therapy:-)

    I would have liked to sum up some of the lessons learned – because I have been able to put some of these experiences to constructive use, and I didn’t come here to moan (but which is what I ended up doing – sorry!) – but I’m just not having that kind of day. lol, how self-indulgent is that now:p I don’t recognize myself these days in general, plus T Venus in Cancer is on my Sun/Moon-midpoint/Pallas.

  26. This entire thread has made my well up with tears. And yes, I feel like I keep losing time too, hopefully on the tail end though…just a couple more years to go.

  27. I can remember “waking up” in my early 30’s after 10 years of bitter marriage and thinking, “what the…? Who’s life have I been living?”. It surely didn’t feel like mine.

  28. It was pretty close to twenty years for me when Pluto was in Libra & Scorpio. Somewhere around the time I turned 21 until my early 40’s, the life I had envisioned when I started college was completely derailed. With all my personal planets & ASC in Libra, Scorpio & Sagittarius, I got slammed as all the outer planets moved thru those signs.

    Fortunately i don’t have anything in early cardinal! Enough already!! 🙂

  29. Oh wow Elsa. What an amazing post. Thank you. It is so comforting to know I’m not alone in this feeling. I’m very grateful.

    I am just waking up after 10 years… And while I completely agree intellectually with the ideas of no wasted time / no regrets etc etc, in reality, the sadness and grief over those lost years is extremely real and so palpable. It hurts. It feels like failure.

    FrankD, I love your idea of changing your age to reclaim the lost years! Thanks. I’m changing my age back, and going to make decisions from that viewpoint 🙂


  30. it really does work to change your age. Its a whole mind set of a do over and this time your in control. I met a girl a few montsh back that did the same when i told her i had two ages she told me she did too.

  31. Hi Elsa,
    I have pluto in virgo conjunct my MC within 20 minutes. And Chiron conjunct my IC (lots of fun LOL!)
    I have my whole life been a medium for other peoples change process, I am to paraphrase Erin Sullivan a catalyst ( & yes it is even my profession Im a Business Analyst)
    I have after a lifetime of ‘chuncks out of my life’ LOL! taken the view that some of us have to take resposibility for what was undone in the past. 10 years – a life time, you are all absurb as compare against what it could be!
    Elsa, astrology is truly enlightening – but most of us keep all our entitlement and expectations firmly in place and stop the wonder of the planets to touch us!
    BTW me too….
    love & metta

  32. Thanks Elsa, this has finally let me work out what happened to me. Eight years ago I started to get ill, turned out to be a combo of underactive thyroid and Fibromyagia. I had never looked at the transits to my natal at the time, but it turns out transiting pluto was conjuncting my Neptune in the 6th which is natally squaring Saturn, so old saturn was triggered too.

    I’m still not a1 but I am much better than I was in those first five years (I spent most of it on various meds some of which turned me in to a zombie and others did nothing and some gave me other side effects, I was even on that wonder drug Vioxx) and am starting to try to plan my life again and do something with it, because I’ve effectively been in limbo for 8 years unable to lead anything approaching a normal life.

    So yes I’ve lost a chunk of my life and my youth, and it has gone very quickly.My twenties were to put it frankly crap, I’ve learned from them but the lessons haven’t been fun to learn. Now with my Saturn just returned, I’m hoping my thirties will be a better decade.

    So thanks for pointing this out!

  33. Thanks Elsa, this has finally let me work out what happened to me. Eight years ago I started to get ill, turned out to be a combo of underactive thyroid and Fibromyagia. I had never looked at the transits to my natal at the time, but it turns out transiting pluto was conjuncting my Neptune in the 6th which is natally squaring Saturn, so old saturn was triggered too.

    I’m still not a1 but I am much better than I was in those first five years (I spent most of it on various meds some of which turned me in to a zombie and others did nothing and some gave me other side effects, I was even on that wonder drug Vioxx) and am starting to try to plan my life again and do something with it, because I’ve effectively been in limbo for 8 years unable to lead anything approaching a normal life.

    So yes I’ve lost a chunk of my life and my youth, and it has gone very quickly,My twenties were to put it frankly crap, I’ve learned from them but the lessons haven’t been fun to learn. Now with my Saturn just returned, I’m hoping my thirties will be a better decade.

    So thanks for pointing this out!

  34. I lost the last 10 years to graduate school. It was absolutely the wrong choice for me, and as a result I’ve been floundering in higher education for a decade. Maybe it was Pluto in Sagittarius? I’m finally almost done now!

  35. Very interesting..When I was 29 (1984) married to a taurus (didn’t know he had an 18 yr old girlfriend) it was early october and I was having a nite out w/ my girlfriend and we wound up in a bar and she introduced me to this very good looking Italian Aquarius man. Instant Attraction!! And got the courage to tell my husband that I wasn’t happy. He’d been cheating on me for a year and I wasn’t getting the “goodies” So I think he was very happy that I asked for a divorce. (some years later she cheated on him and divorced him ha ha)
    Anyhow..6 months later I got pregnant. (had a lot of female problems so didn’t even think it possible) We married. He wasn’t who I thought he was. And when our son was one years old he got sick with a fatal illness. He died in 1995. And I spent those 10 years of my life just trying to care for my son and pay the bills and take care of my dying husband. It was like being in this long dark tunnel and all this scorpio in my chart is like “Never give up!!” someday there will be light..
    So even though I survived I still feel like I lost 10 years of my life. It was sooo very hard and my son has no idea what I went through.
    I’m gonna be 56 Nov.13th so I really never want to lose even 1 year of my life..
    It’s so very important… How we live, how we choose the life that we live.. *)

  36. I lost about six/seven years between age 51 and 57: no money, almost no work, living somewhere I didn’t want to be and feeling trapped there, locked in a weird non-relationship with a married man who I wouldn’t have as a lover but couldn’t avoid in the social context and who wouldn’t leave me alone; and then failing health so in and out of hospital and often ill, and putting on a load of weight. I could see no way out …

    – but hey, I survived it and came out the end of the tunnel! Any other lost years (and I’ve had another one since) have only lasted about a year.

    It helps to know you CAN survive such things; so I’m posting thins to give anyone hope, who might need it to hang on in there

  37. How odd, Frank! Just several days ago I decided to “do over” my age. I was feeling bitter over the time I wasted on my first marriage (twenties) and working like crazy (thirties) to raise two kids on my own. Pluto opposed or squared nearly everything in my chart from my early twenties until just a couple of years ago. I’m now in my mid-40s, starting a new career with a new husband in a new country while all around me, my friends and family are talking “grandchildren!”, “slowing down”, “retirement” and finally paying off the mortgage. But I feel like I’m just getting started again! Thanks to my Gemini sun, venus, moon and mercury trined by ascendant in Libra (plus good genes), I look a decade younger than I am and I’m in very good shape. So I thought, to hell with it. I’m 36, not 46, and I’ve still got a lot of living to do and more than enough time to accomplish all of my dreams. I know it’s silly, but this age “adjustment” of ten years (which is just for me–I don’t lie about my age) has lifted me out of a recent depression. I have no problem with my age–it’s the passing of time AND the many lost years that had me freaking out a few days ago. Thanks everyone for all your comments. It helps to know that there are others out there with regrets over poor choices and roads not taken.

  38. I’m glad the age adjustment is giving you a new beginning it certainly did for me. My last ten years have been nothing but staying a float there have been so many obstacles. According to my chart Uranus will leave my second house for good on march 2011 and i can’t wait.

  39. I wish I’d seen this a year ago. This is right around the time that I started to really sink into the deepest depression I’ve been in for a while… I was looking back and wondering why I hadn’t done this or that, wtf was wrong with me? I’d wasted most of my youth (mostly untrue, but I was thinking about college, and friends, travelling), other mistakes that I’d made, thanks to fear, or focusing on the wrong things.

    I remember why I felt the way I did, and I remember how strong those feelings were – how deep they were inside me, and how real it all felt, but I also remember feeling optimism, hope, etc…

    I need to read this properly later on (the comments). I commented elsewhere, that at 21, I went through Pluto opposing my Moon, Venus, South Node and Vertex in the 8th, and squared my Mars. I can see how it manifested, but I can also see how helpful it would have been, had I really used it – been in a position to really work with it.

  40. And thank you for saying this:
    “For the people who would say no time is ever wasted… yes I can see that perspective as well but it is not helpful in the near term for those who wake up one day with total awareness they are on top the wrong mountain or have driven themselves right into a wall.”

    My Dad just said, “That’s life!” and my Mother told me that most people around my age are probably dealing with the same thing, but it doesn’t help – not when you can clearly see things, and wonder what the hell you were thinking during those times/years. I have most of the symptoms of chronic fatigue syndrome, and know that my physical health also played a role, but it’s not big enough to be an excuse for *everything* (where common sense should have, and usually would have reigned supreme).

    I need to get away from this computer… I keep writing novellas in your comments.

  41. I feel like i’ve experienced too much trauma.I was off to a bad start early on.Alot of things were just thrust upon me(plutonian and otherwise)which I did not choose nor create,in this life time anyway.As a result i’ve made some extremely poor decisions,due to my out of control emotions.I’m making a conscious effort these days to THINK before i act.At times i feel like it’s too late.I wish i could be more optomistic.Am currently dealing w/harsh conditions,which i brought on myself.I wish everyone here the best in your future endeavors.So to sum it up I think I’ve lost more than 10 years,and it sucks.

  42. Yup, I lost 11 years. From 2000 to about February 2011 I was in hell. All those outer planets in mutable signs nearly killed me! Of course not literally, Lol.

    By February 2011, Uranus was almost out of Pisces and things just started getting better. I feel like a new life has began though and things just aren’t the same and will never be the same….ever.

  43. Yep, 1996 to 1999, I just pulled right back due to weird emotional/health stuff. It was The Huber method that timed it perfectly….Age Point hit my Saturn in the 6th exactly in Jan of 1996 that time. Then again 2007 to right now. Had Saturn all over me this year. Had Solar Arc Saturn on my Mars in the 8th the last few years. Pluto squared my Mars in the 8th in 2005 and 2006, but it didn’t really affect me as much as i thought it would.

  44. OHHH! *slaps palm to forehead* That’s what my first marriage was. Pluto bearing down on ASC then passing through my first house over Neptune and finally my Moon before I got out. Thanks for flipping the switch for that light bulb moment.
    Second house went much better and the third is going well too.

  45. How moving all these comments are. Well….what’s life like without this?? I wouldn’t know. Lost years; I suppose they could be called that but I can’t afford to see them that way or my life until very recently would be a lost life. Like Strawberry Fields and some others here…this is just how it is. Pluto held me under for a long, long time and everything I did on the top withered sooner or later, I mean for decades. This is a ‘purpose’ of my life for reasons I accept now I can’t know or fight. Not exactly comfortable, no, but vastly more comfortable now I don’t fight myself. I’ve survived! I have many blessings. I’ve developed a wicked sense of humour now; too dark for most.(grin).

  46. I sobered up in 93 too 🙂 I also feel as if it has been decades not only 10 years of being ‘under’. Struggling to reach up out of it. It is difficult as so many poor habits formed, constantly cringing about my seeming ‘stupidity’ and yes! hard to face the consequences at times. These are tough times and I am sometimes doubtful I can be as strong as they seem to require one to be. The people I encounter who are in their 20s and 30s seem very tough; intimidating to me now at 48 with all my baggage. I am hopeful I can build my confidence gently – Ascendant 28 degrees Cancer – very Moony.

  47. Lol @ Myrna. Not to long after I got married in my 20s my mom admitted (in a matter of fact way) “He’s not what I expected for your first husband.” O_o Sigh…Aries.

    A lot of my family members come from the “life is short, have fun now” camp. So I haven’t lost too many years (although it did feel that way). But I’ve been doin some serious catching up since the divorce. (learning what i had been missing/not getting!). I’m embracing my entry into the 30s. Minimal regrets tho. I try (and hope) to make choices that I won’t regret.

    Great thread, ((Elsa))!

  48. yes, I lost more than 10 years of my life due to outer planet transits. But I recovered and I’m better than I was before. it took many many years to recover…but I did. It is possible with perseverance.

    What a great blog E!

  49. Eight years before I realized I had climbed the wrong mountain, and I’ve spent the last two climbing back down…divorce will be final Wednesday. I look back and wonder who on earth I was and what did I think I was doing? It was like living in a fog. That was one hard lesson to learn and I am really glad it is over. On to the next lesson!

    Thanks for posting this and helping me realize I’m not the only one doing crazy things!

  50. Any time an outer planet is in early degrees of a sign, it’s aspecting all three of my natal OPs. I’ll have to look back and see how this has affected me.

  51. I am looking at the last 10 years of my life. Saturn in Libra through the 11th has made me aware of my lack of a support system. The past 10 years, I didn’t take my relationships (love, friendship, family) very seriously. I felt I was stronger to ‘go it alone.’

    Now that I am bereft, and wistful for the times I was truly supported, I wonder where I went wrong. I still don’t know if I am on the wrong mountain or what. But I’m hoping if I ask the right questions I will get this fixed before it gets worse.

  52. In the early 80’s my world turned upside down when my ex started drinking again. If any of you have been in relationship with an alcoholic, you know what happened. I became obsessed with his drinking; with finding the bottles – not dumping them out, but knowing they were there. His drinking ruled my life until I found Alanon. I didn’t like the meeting, but the material, along with Melody Beatty’s books, helped me realize this was not my fault – I didn’t cause it and I couldn’t cure it – and recover my self-respect. It was a long process.
    During this time, Pluto was opposite my sun. It was a very difficult time for me because I was forced to reevaluate much of my life. Though the transit was in my sixth house, my fourth house is my Leo house (Sun rules Leo) containing my natal Pluto so this affected my family immensely. By the time it was over, my marriage was as well. I started back to college in my 40’s and basically rebuilt my life.
    I don’t know if these years were “lost”, but I was definitely flattened and it took the better part of ten years to pull my life back together. But with the help of Pluto, I did find my power. In retrospect, it was a good lesson. At the time, it was pure hell.
    I’m still waiting for Neptune to get off my Moon.

  53. I was pretty miserable between 2000 and 2010, I wonder if that has anything to do with Neptune transiting my 12th house (or Pluto in Sagittarius hitting many of my planets). Thankfully Uranus is in Aries instead of Pisces (much less self-pity!), but I wonder how things will be different once Neptune crosses over my Ascendant (9 degrees Pisces). I’m making sure my years are useful…

  54. Pluto transit, first it opposed my venus, then squared itself, next it hit my moon, followed by my sun (also to jupiter). I’m really greatful you’ve put this up here today, as I was thinking of this (loss of 10yrs, or waking up on the wrong mountain) a lot lately. It makes my cappy placements nervous about wasting the time (not that I’d have a choice being it was a pluto transit). Still, it’s good to know there’s a shift coming and just as I’m pulling out of this pluto transit. That’s good news by me 🙂

  55. man! this post hits home. I’ve lost 12 years. Pluto, Neptune, and Uranus ROCKED my world during this time period. The time period started with a horrible marriage and ended with me literally being blown away like Dorothy and Toto to some magical land. I probably joined some cults along the way if I’m honest..lol. Then one day, I clicked my heels and ,poof, now I’m home. I’m still like “WTF was that!!!!!????”

    It was just outrageous. But on my deathbed I will have no doubt that I have TRULY LIVED.

    Yes, I have PTSD now…lol…..and I’m traumatized. But that’s okay. I’m healing everyday. I just have to slow down my internal world back to pre-lost years settings so that I can get back to the business of my real life in the real world. Time to roll up my sleeves and get to work. No more lost years for me if I can help it.

  56. I don’t know how to answer. I had a 9 year Neptune transit with Uranus to my sun and moon in my teens but I still felt I was ‘me’ despite all the drugs and chaos. I still basically liked myself.

    But then there was a chunk of time when Pluto crossed my descendant in late 07 and 08 when all hell broke loose (and I was sober already) – and the recovery from that resultant horror took 3 years to get over, be rid of the ptsd and back to my normal ‘self’; It’s difficult for a sun/jupiter to actually feel nihilistic but that is how I felt during that time. I lost myself there for a while. Physically I am still recovering, but am almost fully healed now.

  57. I feel very comforted reading other people’s experience of this. I definitely lost ten years and feel both defeated by and resigned to the fact. There was nothing I could’ve done differently to effect the outcome. It is what it is, i guess.

  58. @milano….omg…it was the pluto crossing over the descendent in 2007-2008 that ABSOLUTELY undid me as well. You must be 28 degrees Gemini Rising like me. I knew nothing of astrology back then. I looked back on that time period and saw that Pluto and Jupiter were exact my DSC when things just got otherworldy. I’m still physically recovering as well.

    (((((milano))))) Hang in there.

  59. Ditto to Tatiana’s reply. I feel like when Pluto went into Sag, I died. I completely lost all of my luck and I had been very lucky up until that point. I have made terrible decisions since then and all with the best possible intentions. Mostly to heal others. Since Pluto went into Capricorn, I have been being pushed to live my truth, which is something I don’t want to do because my truth is very 8th house. (Uncomfortable in the light of day). My real life seems to be about the dark corners of the 8th house and transformation. I have lost nearly 20 years transforming in secret while not wanting to be known by the world. I will either die like this or I will become known and live with it. Either answer is painful and not one I would choose.

  60. Just wanted to add that when Pluto was in Scorpio, I got to live five lifetimes in those years. That was the best time, when I had the most luck, felt the most alive, had so many different experiences and was the happiest. So, it was quite a juxtaposition when it moved to Sag.

  61. @BurnedBridge,
    Yes, I am 28 Gemini rising!!! Luckily things are better now, but for a while, yeah, unreal! That’s what lead me to put credence in astrology, because the timing of that crap was so exact. (((((BB))))) Hugs back to you! I think Pluto over the descendant is supposed to be one of the most difficult transits ever, but we survived :D.

  62. Maybe I’ve said this ad nauseum, but I label my first 2 decades as crazy. I have no idea what I was thinking, and it was like I was drunk the whole time.

  63. wowwwwwwwww….if I had a hint of doubt about astrology before, I don’t anymore. Uncanny. Thanks for sharing your story like you did Milano. This has definitely been an ‘aha’ moment for me.

  64. The inconjunct feels harder than the actual opposition because it seems all about the awareness. The opposition feels like the collision and the inconjunct is the whiplash.

  65. The ten degrees of Pluto on my IC to when really cleared my nodal axis/angles of my chart (0 mutable). From about 1990-97. I missed being a teenager entirely and have no clue what that must be like.

  66. Hibernation has been my god sent since 2004! The older i get..the more i like my solitude. Though some say i am just ”MIA” all the time.

    Saturn in Scorpio
    Pluto in Scorpio(in 1st house)!
    Venus in Taurus
    Moon in Virgo (in 12th house)!
    Mars in Cancer
    Sun in Cancer …etc

    I love to procrastinate! People are always asking me where the hell i have been over the past 10 years since school! (i have no face book..)

    I simply just say..

    ”Dancing With The Wolves”


  67. I had pluto transiting my 4th house stellium while in sagittarius and I basically became agoraphobic/severe social anxiety, left school at 13 (2001) as a result, and have been trying to claw my way back to some kind of normality ever since! In 2009 I managed to get myself to university and things really began to transform then.

    Thought it was interesting as Toni said she’s a Sag and mentioned the exact same dates as me!

  68. Yes, I have. I have a stellium and Pluto has also hit most of my planets.

    My lost decade involved a relationship. Saturn in Libra helped with that

  69. Thank you so so much (Elsa, and everyone) for reminding us we are not alone. I have Neptune and Saturn square my sun, so most of my life has felt like trudging up a mountain with a wet blanket over my head. I can completely relate to losing chunks of time: to addiction, to bad relationships, to just being in an emotional fog. Wish I’d known about transits then… it helps to have some way to make sense of it all.

  70. Oh yes! Another one here – it comes as a shock – the realisation that a decade just evaporated – then comes the Wake-Up-Call.

    Great Post Elsa thanks, your reading prepared me for the next “big thing” to prepare and edit for in my chart. Here we go then. . . .

  71. Just looked at the Ephemeris and then at some chart transits…

    In 1990 Pluto started a conjunction to my BML in Scorp, in opposition to my Moon. Saturn, then Neptune, then Uranus were all transiting my Cap stellium in turn.

    So all this trugged on for years, with Pluto then crossing over my IC and angle in Sag, where my SN is. Now HE’s reached my Cap stellium… and I’ll have the Saturn opp to my Moon along with the Pluto conjunction to my Venus then Sun, in a dew years.

    Rock on… I’ve a few years respite right now from the worst of it

  72. hmm, from 45 to the present, 52…not dating much at all, or socializing. Just holed up at home out here in the boonies with my pets.

    My nephew died very young and his death rocked the whole family. When my live in boyfriend of three years didn’t show up for the funeral I stuck a fork in it.

    And ever since then I haven’t dated much. Two months with one guy and realized I was never going to desire him, just wasn’t happening. And that was the longest try.

    Considering how I dated through my teenage years ’till my early forties, it would seem weird, indeed.

  73. Thanks for posting on this subject. It all makes sense to me now. Astrological detriments chunks of lost time through outer planets. Wow. My mind is racing figuring this out.

  74. I lost years with Pluto conj Saturn and opposing my Moon. And, Saturn transiting 6th, conj Pluto. Like you’re alive, but you’re really not. You can’t “make up for it,” but you can try to let the past be the past and not harass yourself about all of the losses.

  75. This is me, making up for my 20s in my 30s. Or trying to at least. Staying hopeful, but at the same time wondering, if my time went with my 20s. Sheesh

  76. I spent about 8 years in a pointless, mentally abusive relationship thinking that somehow it was all my fault. Finally I awoke and it was like being let out of jail. The saddest part is that I was stupid enough to take so long in realizing that being dominated isn’t the same as being loved. Well, duh. Wish I hadn’t been such a slow learner! I came away with one golden nugget though: Life is too short to put up with other people’s crap. : )

  77. Sadly, I feel like I lost my 20s to working in dead end jobs, taking care of a sick parent, and never being able to meet the right partner and settle down. My 30s have been very different. I got married, traveled all over the world, and am starting a family. Eventually I got everything I wanted but I wanted it all at 21, not at 36.

  78. Ah yes thats me, actually my life feels broken into seperate chunks of time, with a different and unrecognisable person in each section. Each expanse of years feels like a dream. My late degree virgo Pluto crossed my early degree libra stellenium (pluto, sun, uranus, Merc, Jupiter) in childhood, and on departure caused life events from which I was never the same. It squared my Capricorn mars at this time too (venus and Staurn in angle too). Saturn kicked my butt as it crossed/ aspected my stellenium each time. Then pluto crossed my Sag ascendent, and moved on to conjunct my badly aspected Mars. I have learnt so much, i life burnt to the ground each time, and morphed into something unrecoginsable even to myself. Yes i have woken up many times to find i lost years of time down some path. I am not sure they were wring paths, possibly i am meant to have these bizzare and exteme life experiences. They have completely altered my life thoughts. Once I was conservative and judgemental, i would say I am the direct opposite of that nowdays. My eyes keep being opened. Every time I hear myself say “I would never do/ say/ feel x, y z, the universe feels it needs to change my mind. What better way to do that than through personal experience.

  79. Hi Windsaloft, yes looking at it as experience is definely best. It is too empty to look at it as wasted time. I am sure these things happen to show us something, to make us rest or contemplate. Possibly just to energize us, or to make us appreciate something more right for us when it happens. It is always a strange moment when realization hits though, and it is frustrating sometimes. I often wonder if the realisation of time wasted, and emptiness at feeling like time is wasted comes as you get older, and realize as humans we are not immortal – That time is getting away, becoming more scarce. For me I feel frustration that there may not be enough time to experience all that I want to, and still end up getting it right.

  80. 2003…lost 3 houses & all income to a divorce….stellium in Scorpio…many HARD lessons. Consoled to know that there was some higher spiritual purpose to this 11 year crazy quest and that I am not alone.
    I KNOW the end is near. I just completed a Biz plan to help women secure their finances for THEMSELVES with or without a seemingly financial secure marriage.
    To all who suffered, hang in there, make lemonade if you get lemons!!

  81. (((everyone)))
    What a great post, Elsa! Lights on at last. I look back at a series of lost decades with occasional “found weekends” — hope this is one. With Pluto banging my ASC and Neptune in my 2nd opposing my Moon right now, I needed this eye-opener, and to know I’m not alone in this chaos. Pluto and Neptune get the hell out of my way! Time to claw out of the mud, get my Emma Peel on, and get back in the driver’s seat. Now if I only had a map…

    • Need to re-read this article and so many helpful comments here again and again! Six months later and I’m still stuck in the mud, amazed at how energized I sounded in April. But it fizzled, still searching for the map…

  82. I like surfing old posts, and I find gems. This morning I read a one where Elsa (Hi, Elsa! Been awhile.) noted that her son’s Libra moon = haed time making decisions. That helped.
    Here, outer planet transits and loss of life/time. My chart has packed eastern hemisphere, and stellium in Sag in 2nd, and sun/Saturn in Cap. Pluto is up near the top of th e chart, and I am aware of how Plutonian my life has been. Pluto has conjuncted each planet but Uranus, (made the square, though), in my lifetime already. Yes, it is as if I lost big chunks of my life, over and over. Looking at it this way helps. I think many people quit trying to understand me, but who understands something like this? At 56, I feel like I am ready to rock, though it’s an outdoor show and it just rained again. Sloppy, but I am here, and game.
    I know Pluto is still a major, direct force. I also know that I lived through all of the conjunctions in this single lifetime, and that’s both a relief, and worth noting.

  83. Thanks for this thread Elsa, what a relief to know it’s not just me. My life has been chaotic for several years now since Pluto in final degrees of Sag opposed my Mars/Uranus conjunction in Gemini/Cancer, moved over my Descendant in Capricorn, squared my Ascendent, opposed my Mercury in Cancer, squared my Neptune in Libra and for the past fifteen months has been squaring my Moon in Aries concomitant with Uranus conjunct my Moon. Uranus is about to square my Sun and and Pluto will oppose Sun before the end of the decade.

    During those years I married someone with a Personality Disorder, my emotions were all over the place, depression, outward display of extraordinary anger. Gradual realisation of a dysfunctional childhood led me to break contact with my family (not regretted), realisation that I had married into an unhealthy family where extreme dysfunctions were hidden from public view, divorce, house move, a heart breaking further relationship with a PD, and partial estrangement from my son. Oh, and trouble with the drains in my new house.

    Pluto in Capricorn is trudging through my fourth house, Uranus in my seventh. I only saw the greater astrological picture when the Pluto/Moon and Uranus/Moon combination was at its height. This coincided exactly with a year of hell with a BPD man.

    I finally realised that I am being taught karmic lessons that I must learn. Pluto in fourth bringing up so much stuff from the past that is influencing my present. At times I have been in despair, feeling unable to cope with the emotions, isolation and practical difficulties. But I must; I find the classic interpretation of Pluto square Moon so accurate, excavation of my emotional and family foundations, hopefully leading to transformation. It’s hell, truly the underworld and I now view the earlier transits as preparation for the Pluto/Moon transit which thankfully ends later this year.

    Despite the difficulties, like Mena, I’m relieved that I’m going through them in a single lifetime and and given the opportunity to grow via chaos and turmoil. Although I’d rather be sitting in the sun surrounded by loving family, calm and content. 😉 But my life, my lessons, my journey; so be it.

  84. 10 years is a terrifyingly long amount of time 🙁 I have a stellium. I don’t want that.

    Neptune conjunct my natal Mars was like that. It was about a year and a half long, my last year in college. So it wasn’t a waste, I graduated, but I pretty much just coasted to the end. I slept for most of it. I was sick. I had no energy. I would sleep for 15hrs a day.

    Then there was the time I went to college in CT and flunked every class because I didn’t care, and then I got the lamest job ever. It ended when I moved to Vegas 🙂 Uranus went back and forth over my Jupiter those two and a half years. Who would have thought Uranus conjunct Jupiter would manifest in me NOT moving or exploring anything at all? It was also squaring my stellium at the time.

    I’ve met a lot of unhappy people who don’t move or change. I wonder if they’re stuck in one of these periods? They’ve been like that for years and years.

  85. Yeah, I lost about a dozen years of decent income when I got laid off from my job and decided to live on freelancing. My live-in bf also broke up with me so I was on my own. Pluto moved through my 4th house first opposing my Mars in Taurus then squaring my Mercury/Venus/Pluto stellium in Virgo and eventually hitting my Virgo Sun square Sag Saturn. It took awhile to recover from all that – finally got a full time job, moved, and met my partner. I did gain some useful freelance experience during that time, fortunately, which helped me get into a new, better-paying career.

  86. Yes !!! Ive lost 10 years in a horrible marriage ???!!! I’ve been so angry about it too ! Thank you for this post it really helps to know I had to experience the trauma for my souls growth!

  87. Oh my God, I did! I spend almost 11 years married, raising a child and trying to be a good wife, in my 19 to 30, and one day realized that that life wasn’t for me. The period started with Pluto transiting my Sun and Saturn in opposition to my natal Saturn in Libra where I’ve got an stellium. Do you think this has something to do with it?

  88. Stellium in Scorpio in 4th house… In 2003 I lost 2 houses to legal theft by my Ex. Always lived off my housing investment income….struggling still but forever optimistic. Lost so many “friends”plus extreme mental house cleaning but I feel empowered and wise…
    I would not say “lost” but “F$#@ing EYE-opening”
    Lived to see the said Ex lose EVERYTHING he stole and realized that he was a TOTAL NARCISSIST.
    See Secret Language of Narcissists by Shahida Arabi…it will save many a human from “losing” years to bad partners. I am also writing a movie script to document my experiences and how I survived….Prayer Astrology Hope….

  89. There are a LOT of comments here over the years, haven’t read them all, but I’m seeing several mention Pluto in Sag. When I look at the dates for that, yes, that was a chunk of lost time for me in a way. In Nov. of 95 I was still in college, graduated a year early by Aug of 96, so that wasn’t all bad, but I should never have gone back home after that. From Sept 1996-July 2008 I worked a low-paying, dead-end retail job I hated. Lived in back in my mother’s hometown where I was not happy.

    In Nov. of 2007, a friend laid the groundwork for my pondering going back to grad school at age 33. By April-May of 2008 the wheels were in motion. In August of 08 I moved to the city where I live now, did my year of grad school and now work in my chosen field making more money per job than I made in a month at the retail job. I’m proud of what I do, I love the city where I live. While some good things did happen in that dark time, I met some new friends, I did some volunteer work that also helped lay the foundation for my life now, but living in that city, with that crappy job, ugh. It was 12 lost years, to me. Pluto Capricorn ushered in a huge change. But it sucked to lose from age 21-33, those young years. But now I’m like “better late than never”. I nearly talked myself out of going back to school, my age, the expense……THANK GOD I persevered, and my friend pushed me…and that I was sick and tired of the life I had and was desperate for a change.

    Life is pretty good now, although I still struggle to find a happy romantic relationship. I’m hoping that part changes soon, too!

  90. Sure did lose ten years, and counting. I read an interesting article by Donna Cunningham about how it has just sucked to be a Libra for a long, long time and that has definitely been my experience. The Pluto/Uranus square picked up my early Libra Sun, and in 2020, Pluto will be conjunct the IC and square my Ascendant and Mercury/Venus in later degrees of Libra, around the time that Uranus will be opposing same.

    It’s been one catastrophe after another on every front: health, career, kids, relationships. It is getting really hard to bother investing in anything.

  91. Actually, it’s the Pluto/Saturn conjunction that will be conjunct IC and square a ton of Libra in 2020. Yay! I can remember being in my teens in the ’80s when the same conjunction occurred on my ASC, and it was just awful.

  92. Yes, a full “Saturn Return” marriage. That’s a lot of years but I’m financially secure; two great grown kids; and a bright, sunny life chapter ahead of me.

    • When you say a full “Saturn Return” marriage, do you mean it lasted a full Saturn Return cycle (28-30 years), or do you mean it started during a Saturn Return?

  93. Perhaps my life is a patchwork of these lost years.

    Astrology had been on the outskirts of my interests probably just as I was entering my teens, stumbling upon a book or two that my mother had borrowed from the library. (Ohhh! So this sign explains pretty much the way I am – cool).

    On to the late 80’s – during a somewhat sad Fall (My 2 year old beautiful blue Pontiac Firebird that I had ordered from the factory is stolen, stuff like that.) – stumbling upon a new age-y book authored by an astrologer, that described numerology, the third-eye, a bunch of stuff. More great content reflecting my personality and experiences.

    On to 1997-1998, a markedly unhappy time. One evening during the ’97 Christmas holidays, I decided to quiet all inner whisperings about astrology not being worthwhile, against the religion that I had been raised with, and ordered Dalton’s Book of Houses. Using this and some other guides found in the bookstore(s), I plotted my chart. My eyes were opened! A brand new threshold to step through. I was hooked. I spent the summer of ’98 devouring astrology books and astrology has been a source of support ever since.

    It turns out that during this time Saturn had been transiting my 12th and was crossing my ascendant, and Neptune had been swimming along in my 10th since that late 80’s Fall mentioned above.

    I’ve found many parallels with traditional western religion, and some things that I feel have been left out from western religion. But I work with it.

    So the unforeseen “wrong” turns are still painful if I think about them too much. Astrology and the associated subjects are still my source of comfort and reinforce the practice to remember to not think too much about outcomes.

    So much more to say. But thank you Elsa, your assistants and your colleagues for cultivating this immensely interesting and helpful way of life.

  94. I knew a friend, who is now 45 years old, who suffered severe depression and didn’t want to get out of bed, from the time she was about age 6 to age 29. I guess her Saturn Return was a positive one. Started putting on more makeup, being more outgoing, going out more, smiling more, losing the 50 pounds she gained during those 23 years, and just plain being more positive.

    If there is every a positive Saturn Return story, hers is one. Unfortunately, she lost 23 years of her life. She was lucky she passed high school, being how severe her depression was.

    I asked her if she’s bitter she lost 23 years of her life, she just told me that she was glad she out of depression at all. She told me it was better than the alternative: Never getting out of depression.

  95. I’ve lost 18 years so far, the entire time Saturn was in the underworld of my chart. Beyond hopeless and horrible. Had I known ahead of time what I was in for I would not have thought I could survive this much hardship and horror.

  96. Those Pluto transits are whoppers! I gave a decade or so to the Lord of the Underworld during his trips through Scorpio and Sag. But finally he let me go in 2012 with such empowering gifts! I had to die to be reborn, Phoenix style!My 40’s are now amazing, 30’s were comatoxicly hard! I quarantined myself most of the time, I’m thankful I didnt have to be out in public that often! I’m pretty sure Saturn and Neptune played parts too though. Sun Scorpio 12th, Sag AC conjunct Neptune, Moon Leo 9th opposing Jupiter, Saturn Cancer 7th opposing Venus Cap.
    I think I had some intense squares going on and Neptune opposing my moon too. Not sure I will have to look into the ephemeris to see.
    I can remember when I ‘woke’ up or was released. Saturn in Scorpio and Uranus square Pluto transits! It was like I was a Walk In! Hell, maybe I am! Idk but I’m stronger than ever now. Thank you Universe!

  97. Uranus over the ascendant, squaring stellium in Aries! Yow!
    Then comes Neptune — then Pluto! Pow! Pow!
    And now Uranus is heading for the IC – along with the rest of the gang. OMG.

    What I have learned is this: it is all always moving!

    Nothing lasts forever – the good or the bad – so cultivate equilibrium and all will be well.

  98. I have a sneak peak preview of Pluto transiting over my natal Mercury in late Capricorn next years in the form of Mercury-Pluto conjunction in my Solar Return this year. And gosh, I’ve cluttered my mind with so much information pushed down my throat, educational system on this planet is a steaming pile of useless horse shit. Tons and tons of impractical facts and history details that change absolutely nothing and that has no practical application other than social masturbation in the form of “phd” and “doctor” label. Erase! Erase! Erase! Making mental space for something meaningful and fresh and alive. Time to leave behind coffins of the information long expired.

  99. What a great article Elsa!!

    I feel like I’ve lost the last 18 years due to damaging financial and emotional circumstances from my first marriage and now as my second is in shambles, I’m contemplating whether to walk away from it all and start fresh. And I really, really loved another commenter’s idea of resetting their mental age to adjust, that way it doesn’t feel like a loss. The mind has a powerful effect on the body so maybe I’ll feel younger too! ?

    Also, thanks to this post, I know my “why” now ??

  100. Yes, this happened to me when Uranus opposed my natal stelliums I have two stelliums back to back from 12 degrees Virgo through 16 degrees Libra. Eight planets in a string through the 9th and 10th houses so the opposition included my MC as well. I am still surprised I lived through it and at any given moment during that time if I had, had the option to just lay down and die it would have felt like sweet relief. I cannot recount the compounded blows because frankly its just too much to think about all that happened. Nothing learned was worth the devestation I experienced. Uranus was only the ring master Saturn was simultaniously conjuncting my string of planets for a few years of it at the beginning. Other transits came into play as well but the caotic destruction was the Uranus opposition.

    • And now 2 years later as Saturn squares and Uranus opposes said sellium my ass is once again kicked, some situations repeated some new all devestating. 2018 is rivaling 2007-2008 for top spot as worst year of my life. Everytime outers zap my chart they zap 2/3 of my planet all in immediate session. It is brutal!

  101. I just had Uranus conjunct my Mercury, my Sun, trine my Asc and square my Moon. All within a couple of months and my whole world fell apart. My mom passed away with the Uranus to Mercury hit, and then I had to deal with the fall out and selling her house – my childhood home. My dad passed 3 years ago, and I’m an only child and not married and no kids. I’m pretty much alone now and scared, and am trying to claw my way out of the pit I got thrown into. It’s a whole new world, and I hope that as I emerge from the grief and anxiety, that I will be starting a new life for myself. This is going to take some time of course. I’m kinda scared of what the second hit of Uranus is going to do! I’m dealing with physical issues now too, from the intense emotions. I have great hope for my future though and can’t wait to get going on it.

  102. A lot of celebrities have eras in their lives like this.

    I’ve read about Steve Job’s painful fall from grace in 1985. He spent the next decade, until 1997, to make a huge come back.

    Tina Turner was with Ike Turner for roughly 20 years. And we all know he wasn’t an angel.

    Winona Ryder had an embarrassing public exposure, in 2001. Then by 2016, she finally had a huge hit show again.

    Britney Spears’s breakdown in 2006/2007/2008 was known by everyone. Then she had a comeback in 2008, with her album, Circus. But I feel she’s giving in to her North Node in Cancer now more, though. She said she wanted at least three more kids. Yes, that’s very North Node in Cancer! I wouldn’t be surprised if she doesn’t want to be famous anymore.

    • You’re so right! Mariah Carey too! Her chart was clobbered back in the early 2000’s until she finally redeemed herself back in 2005 and going strong ever since!

        • She went through a lot of transits, actually. After she was divorced from Tommy Mottola, she still dealt with Saturn in Aries crossing over her stellium in Aries. He owned her record label. She had to fight for her independence and creative control in the late 90’s. Then she was free agent. After that, she had a Saturn return as T.Saturn (her MC ruler) in Taurus crossed over her 12th house stellium, incl. Ascendant and then finished up by opposing/squaring her Moon/Neptune. Then the T.nodes and T.Jupiter squared her Sun/Chiron in Aries and T.Neptune in Aqua squared her Jupiter in Scorpio in the 6th right around the time of her mental breakdown due to overwork and exhaustion in July 2001. She blamed it on an exhausting schedule after signing with Virgin Records for $100M (T. Jupiter in the 2nd) but after Saturn moved into Gemini, that very public meltdown and her movie bombing at the box office after 9/11, Virgin decided to part ways to spare the embarrassment and bought out Mariah’s contract for $49M for less than a year’s worth of work. Ouch (That’s a typical Saturn for ya– cleaning up after Jupiter’s party!) Then she disappeared for a few years and reemerged on top in 2005 with a hit album when Jupiter was in the thick of transiting her 6th house…. On the release date, she had Sun/Venus/NN conjunct her natal Venus in Aries and T. Jupiter opposite her natal Mercury.

          “The Emancipation of Mimi”

          Astrology never lies! ?

          • Oh God, sorry for the late reply. So busy job searching these days!

            Thank you for the answer. I always felt that Tommy and Mariah had a karmic meeting. Then Mariah was to break away from him one day!

            I totally forgot Mariah had a Saturn Return. Oh Saturn, oh how you bring down tall towers?? 🙂

            I always felt that the 2005 Mimi album was the end of an era. She proved that she could make it without Tommy’s help. It was like the album was the lid on the whole Tommy era. The transition away from Tommy was complete in 2005/2006.

  103. I’ve lived most of my life under heavy Pluto transits. My chart is bucket shaped, Jupiter r in fourth house, Pluto conjunct Venus, orb of 3 degrees, in Leo in 11th and a stellium in Cancer.

    Pluto has trudged through my chart, making significant transits to most of my planets. Starting with Venus when I was three – my adored father died. Meeting Saturn, crossing my Ascendent, conjuncting Neptune, squaring my Sun in Cancer, and so it went on. Year after year of major Pluto transits. I’ve only realised the significance of these transits in recent years. I’m now in my sixties. During the past few years Pluto has opposed Uranus/Mars conjunct, crossed my IC, opposed Mercury and, for the past 18 months has been squaring my Moon in Aries. Last year Uranus was also conjunct my Moon in Aries – it was hell. Felt as though I’d been hit by a truck, emotionally floored. It eased slightly as Uranus moved away from my Moon but Uranus is now squaring my Sun and I notice the energy is now different. Still difficult but different. I guess, being a Cancerian, the transits to the Moon, are the most difficult of all for me. Certainly has felt so.

    I think a chart like mine shows heavy karma and I’m trying to learn now I understand this. The Pluto/Moon square alongside the Uranus/Moon conjunction was devastating. Luckily Chiron is trine my Sun for the next couple of years and hopefully will help the deep healing work I’m trying to do.

    If you have time Elsa, I’d be really interested to read your comments on charts where Pluto is so active throughout a lifetime. He moves on to oppose my Sun soon and conjunct my Jupiter, activating my Sun/Jupiter opposition. I’m just hoping that I’m handling the present square correctly and will emerge with hard lessons learnt.

    • “If you have time Elsa, I’d be really interested to read your comments on charts where Pluto is so active throughout a lifetime…”

      If you’re caught in something like this for decades, it’s probably not helpful to think of it as something you are going through. Your life is about transformation – period.

      In other words, step into the transit as opposed to trying to defend against it. 🙂

      Good luck.

  104. What a great post. I’ve lost the last six years of my life and counting …

    I’m putting it down to transiting Uranus arriving in Aries and my 12th house. This has been exacerbated by progressed moon arriving there last year and transiting Saturn moving into the 8th. It’s all been about looking inwards which I’m comfortable doing because I’ve practiced so often, but I would like *some* outer action and to feel that my life is moving forwards.

    Think that if my planets had been spaced in such a way that difficult events happened every 3 or 4 years apart, I’d probably just have got through them and whinged about having bad luck.

    But they’re not. And by having a close run of planets the events have been so destructive and rocking to my core that I’ve had no choice but to look inwards, withdraw from life, grieve, learn the lessons and evolve.

    The other positive about the stellium is that the outers have finally reached ‘dead spots’ in my chart. I’ve got almost no hard aspects from them until 2040.

  105. 16 years of friendship. so to speak. i projected the person i wanted her to be. took that long to realize i’d made the whole thing up. or maybe she was that person once, at least partially, and then broke. and it took awhile for me to catch up. i blame an eleventh hosue saturn t-square. things i needed to learn about friendship. and people. and. well. i have planets in middle degrees of all the fire&air signs (except my gemini is early.) it makes for weird transits.

    • Exact here!! That time was hell. No peace at all during that time. My teen years were tough no matter if I was running away with friends for months or being in my shithole of a “home” with my crazy, unsupportive family. Moved to a state I hated with a passion with people I had nothing in common with. Was bullied relentlessly. Married an abusive jerk out of high school and endless drama with him when we separated. Including stalking, harassment at work, slandering me, attempted kidnapping, attempted suffocation and he almost sliced my throat with a kitchen knife. And because he was in law enforcement, he was using the court system to abuse me further when I sought relief when he was actually the abuser but the courts said “he said, she said” and I ended up with a restraining on me! Geez. Like I said —I had no peace during that time. Zero. I don’t know I got through that time. There’s so much more than all of that. Just grateful when those transits ended and life turned a huge corner at my lowest point right after I turned 24.

      Pluto was transiting my 4th & 5th opposite my 10th house stellium & 11th House planets (incl. Mars & Chiron!)

  106. When Saturn hit my Sun-Pluto conjunction I started a new job in a new industry after being self-employed for years. I was 30 and 10 years older than most of my colleagues. I wasn’t used to an office environment and managed to make a serious and powerful enemy, a VP. I absolutely threw myself into overcoming and winning and proving, which I DID, but I lost several years, failed to realize I was destroying myself to build skills in areas I would never be more than ‘just ok’ at. And I did it because I was frightened about a money situation. I did get some valuable skills, but what better skills could I have built that served my strengths? All because I totally gave into fear. You have to rebuild those parts of your self that are damaged by fear and it’s no fun. Like Littlefinger in GoT says “chaos is a ladder”. Make sure you are climbing UP not down into the pit.

  107. Pluto through Sag 2001-2009 was horrible. And I lost the ten years when I could have had children.And now this Neptune square Asc/Mercury which is risking to end my teaching career. My progressed sun is at 29.35 º Capricorn,don’t know what Aquarius may bring me (Maybe Astrology?)

  108. The last 5 years was a total upheaval of my quiet comfortable life.
    Lost my job of 23 year that I loved. Floated around fell in love. Was used and manipulated. Lost all the money. Estranged my son. I worked so hard to save for retirement
    Trying to find my way after the industry I loved threw me out because my job requirement changed. Abusive manipulative father came back into my life…a wolf disguised as a lamb.mother died.
    Relentless pain….
    Saturn was going through my 3rd house and is now is romping in my Capricorn 4th before it announces its return in my Aquarius 5th house. Uranus in Aries scorched my 7th house then into my 8th for the past 5 years. Now I get 2 more years of this emotional upheaval before it tears through my 9th house.
    Im getting tougher colder and much less yielding.

  109. I lost my voice as I was in a horrid
    Marriage ; constantly trying to eradicate the debts in our business
    He spent twice what we made
    I was dragging a dead horse with the rider throwing rocks at me and when exhausted and barely breathing
    The rider would come walk to the mess of me and beat me smother
    Poison and rape my existence
    Till I would rise and drag the dead
    Horse and rider, planning with
    Every step how I would fix things
    Never realizing, all I needed to do
    Was let go, so no looking back
    Just swim float walk run plan or
    Watch and wait everything life
    Offers now better than what I did
    I tried to fix , so no more dead horse
    Am I trouble free hell no but
    I have a voice ,it’s a little voice
    Are years gone yep are there some

  110. To my sisters and brothers who have suffered from Pluto transits, know this: we can and do walk through fire, repeatedly, and come out the other side even stronger than before. They say the most powerful sword is forged through repeated hammering in the hottest flame. We are the embodiment of that sword. I think people like us will have an increasingly important role to play during this time of global upheaval and transformation. We will not bend, we will not break, we would stare down the Devil himself and win. When everyone else is running away, screaming, we’ll be standing tall, saying ‘c’mon, is that all you’ve got?’

    I was born with Pluto stationary direct conjunct Mars in 12th H Virgo, followed by Venus and of course my my Ascendant. As transit Pluto criss-crossed over my natal Pluto and Mars for a couple of years, my mother – who had a personality disorder – nearly starved me to death. As a toddler, I hid from my mother inside a rolled-up mattress in a closet filled with mothballs – the near-total deprivation environment, and the chemicals in the mothballs I guess, resulted in my experiencing numinous out-of-body experiences that remain with me to this day. The visions and experiences from that time have underscored my life with a beauty and grace that has transformed the destructive energies in my chart to something empowering and transformational. Like Elsa, I also left home at 15, when Pluto crossed over my North Node. I had a tough, tough time, but I survived and came out the other side with a brand new life.

    My experiences have given me a great deal of empathy for others, especially those considered outsiders, and I’ve devoted much of my life to helping empower those who’ve been locked out of the good things life has to offer. Right now I’ve got Saturn criss-crossing over my natal 1R Saturn in Capricorn (4th House), but that’s a breeze compared to when Pluto crossed my Saturn 10 years ago – on the day the aspect began to form I had an operation for cancer and my charity received a large grant on the same day.

    You would think I’ve had a terrible life, but I would not have it any different. I have a wonderful husband (married 36 years), some really beautiful friends, a peaceful home, and my work has been incredibly rewarding. My spirit and will sustain me when things would otherwise look bleak.

    As Elsa has so many times demonstrated – Pluto’s entry into your life is often a curse at the time it happens, but a blessing with hindsight. Pluto gifts us with a power and wisdom that few others could even begin to understand. There is no reason to fear it, nothing to fight. Pluto in our life means the Universe had a very special mission in mind for us – do you have what it takes to accept?

  111. So, in 2011 I had Pluto going over my MC and Neptune went into Pisces around this time. Neptune was pretty bad because a kind of addiction I have to ‘spirituality’ became a serious problem. It’s like a high functioning drug addiction that causes serious problems that others can’t understand and that even the spirits can’t really help you out of without simply escalating it until you notice. Neptune is obviously still transiting Pisces and I can handle the energy a bit more now by pushing against it with my own animalism, but it is still fierce and ongoing.

    Saturn is now going over that same place where Pluto was and things are straightening out a bit, a bit but not much. Slowly does it. It has been a meandering few years. Not a waste or loss though.

  112. Re-reading what I wrote on this thread back in 2009, and what others who had charts similar to mine wrote, i.e. people with charts laid out such that your whole life is essentially one long Pluto transit. It all still rang true. (Thanks Elsa for re-surfacing this thread. It is good to revisit stuff years later to re-evaluate.)

    Which led to rediscovering what someone asked in 2016:

    “If you have time Elsa, I’d be really interested to read your comments on charts where Pluto is so active throughout a lifetime…”

    To which Elsa replied:

    “If you’re caught in something like this for decades, it’s probably not helpful to think of it as something you are going through. Your life is about transformation – period.

    In other words, step into the transit as opposed to trying to defend against it.”

    So… here I am… September 2018. Grateful for all the teachings and tips available here on this site. I need to sit down, review a bunch of stuff (both posts AND comments) and align myself for the next transformational phase (I have just completed one).

    Then step up to the plate and swing my bat! 🙂

  113. Wow! That didn’t take long! I’ve already got “it” all figured out (thanks to some key “images” from Elsa and Satori) !

    Whatever transformation lies ahead, I am ready for it! Pluto can do whatever Pluto wants: I have a point of focus and a strategy!

    Gosh that feels good! 🙂

  114. Feel like I lost at least 4 years during my Saturn return in Scorpio. All through this period I had no job, no relationship, lived alone with little contact with anyone. Life seemed pointless and meaningless with no reason for my existence. Guess I was very depressed. It began about 6 months prior to Saturn in Scorpio return to 8th house and ended shortly after Saturn left my 8th house. I have natal Pluto in the 8th so transit would have been conjunct my natal Pluto during this period too.

    Definitely feel I like I lost a few years there.

  115. Oh I can definitely relate to some of the comments about sometimes waking up or looking around and wondering “who am I?” and “is this my life?” And “Who are they?” “is this really real?” “If this has been my life for so long why does it feel so unfamiliar?” Then again, I may have some kind of dissociative disorder. But I don’t know, to me, it feels like I am more awake in those moments than when I am going about living my life.
    It’s awful how time can slip away from you.

  116. Yes! 10 years starting late 20s….so much so that when I moved somewhere I knew no one (to extract myself from untenable situation), I was the thought of as an awful person when I was literally trying to save myself. Sadly it took decades, until this past chunk of years to admit to myself how my behavior was so unlike me … but like I had been treated early in my life.

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