Regarding the piece on Love and War, Humbling etc, comments left by Jessica and Deirdre make it clear to me that I was understood and I am very grateful. Yesterday I told this story to a pal and asked her if it translated because damned if I could tell. She said it did so it’s very heartening to see people get this. I am just in it so deep I’ve no perspective. And so many things compete for my energy and attention it’s not possible to try to remedy that. There are just too many pots on the stove!
I think this is a hallmark of the outer planet transits. So much goes on it’s virtually impossible to process in real time. I’ve said many times I think it takes 10 years to process the life changing events that occur when outer planets transit your chart but that is probably optimistic. Because here I am fathoming my relationship with the soldier, 30 years after the fact and just barely “getting it”. This is humbling.
Also, although many things have happened during this Pluto transit to my Moon, obviously losing my daughter is far and away the most profound. And I am in the middle of this too. It’s in my face every day, it has been for 5 years and I still have very little understanding. I just don’t (can’t) comprehend an event of this magnitude in the near term so I don’t even try.
You’ve just got to live, don’t ya?