When Pluto transits your Moon, feelings surface, you can be sure of that. Deep feelings that are rooted in the past. And last night the soldier told me what I already knew but the information registered differently.
The fact is he walked away from me and 2 weeks later, he married a woman he’d known for about 10 days. He didn’t bother to tell his family until it was already done… his wife was pregnant almost immediately and his fate was sealed.
Meantime, I didn’t know he was gone. I thought he would be back for the longest time. I denied (Neptune) reality (Saturn) in an attempt to stave off painful emotions which eventually overtook me.
So last night (and today) I am re-experiencing them and oddly enough it’s a bit of a comfort. Where I suffered in a vacuum before these things have now been aired and I feel empowered. I survived this, see? And it gives a fine opportunity.
Since this is not real pain I am experiencing in the moment, but just the memory of pain, I am able to be in it and sort through it looking for deeper connections, ie: what does this have to do with my family? And when you make these ties it’s a real glory. I love this kind of deep work. It makes my heart sing.
Do you like sorting through your psyche? And do you have planets in Scorpio or the 8th house?
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