I started writing about Pluto’s transit through my 12th house in 2007. Without a doubt, this series is the most detailed and intimate firsthand account of this transit, in the world. Here’s the first post – Astrology The Scares The Hell Out Of People. If you want to study this transit in depth, click the tag below. It’s been quite an odyssey.
The losses I’ve suffered during this transit have been incalculable. There are no edges in the 12th house. Control is an illusion. It’s possible to yearn (12th house) for death (Pluto) and just as easy to slip away. One day I’m alive. The next day, I’ve passed.
I’m thinking about this, because my doctor called me last week, with test results. He’s young. I could tell he was upset. I wanted to tell him there was no need to be upset. I knew the test would be bad. I was prepared.
My situation is grim. That does not mean I am going to die. I bet all y’all a dollar, I don’t die. But I will suffer.
You know how they rate medical things, mild, moderate or severe? I am “severe”. The word is used more than once in my report.
The doctor’s voice broke when he told me this. I assume it’s because he knows where I’m headed. But he doesn’t really know where I’m headed. He doesn’t know that my ability to tolerate and transcend pain (and hardship) is developed. How else could I get to “severe”, before I ever complained?
This next year is going to be very difficult. I don’t have the timing yet and whatever happens, I probably won’t be talking about it much. This is because it’s a Pluto transit through the 12th house! This stuff is hidden. It’s supposed to be hidden.
The hidden stuff is now revealed, just like when a submarine surfaces before diving back down. But a submarine does not stay on the surface for long.