If you’re researching Pluto’s transit through the 12th house, click the tag for notes on the transit. Here comes another.
I know I just wrote a joyful post but there are other things going on. This Pluto transit has been taking me to very dark places, lately. I finally figured out the root of the problem and I can tell you this – it’s repulsive.
As it turns out, I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. I can’t tell you how disgusting this was to me when I realized it. It’s just gross behavior. Maybe not for you, but for me. For me, it’s absolutely, YUCK.
However, I was thrilled to discover this. Because I ended it, immediately. And I see numerous problems being solved because of this.
Posting this, because if you’re someone who tends to feel sorry for yourself, you might want to consider what that’s costing you. I swear, I’d kick my own ass right now if I could. For my own stupidity.
The good thing about having that realization, is that there is an immediate and uncomplicated solution.
Exactly what’s happened. Yuck (Pluto) leading to fast liberation (Uranus in Aries).
Elsa, what you just wrote: true, in spades, for me through Pluto transit 3rd house: hellish. I have zero idea, why Pluto through 4th feels easy-ish.. But, it does, for me.
For me it’s been several years of self-loathing alternating with self-pity with Pluto working his way through my 12th and Neptune my 2nd. Each time I’ve finally been able to force myself to stop avoiding and escaping long enough to examine facts in depth and actually feel clear about a choice, it’s been like an unseen hand has spun me around again to disorient me.
But as Pluto approaches my ASC for the second time, I’m finding it vital to purge some of the obsession with frugality and security which has undermined me in frightening ways I’m only now realizing. Perhaps Saturn in Sag is focusing Neptune’s hazy illumination of what really matters?
Pluto is gearing up to square my sun any minute…. oh god…I thought, then I come here and see this and I thank you because you are right…no time left to feel sorry for myself. God knows I have been through worse. I am here, I am alive and I need to try every day to make the best of it!!
Thank you for the reminder!!!!!!!
Also, good to know….my husband will have this transit soon enough!
YES!!! That is the same thing for me! I have always been disgusted by wallowing in self-pity! I can’t stand it when others do it, and I have found myself doing it too with this Pluto in the 12th. UGH!!! I know exactly what you mean when you feel like you could kick your own ass. I have gotten pissed off at myself for doing this crap! But as you say, the fact that we realize what we are doing and putting an end to it, means we passed the lesson.
When Pluto transited my 12th house, I wouldn’t describe my feelings in terms of self-loathing or self-pity. It was just a powerful self-awareness that overtook me. I felt an unhappiness about where I was in my life, and who was around me on a daily basis. This was specifically in regard to my working life. I felt as though I had been faking it for years, just to get by. But I didn’t loathe myself for these feelings or for the awareness that I now had about it. Also, don’t forget that the 12th house is the house of hidden enemies. When Pluto passed over my Ascendant, it became clear to me who those people were, and how I didn’t see it all those previous years.
Self pity and self anything has been a dominating theme in my life, subjective and self obsessed as I am. But what has become all engulfing lately is my insecurity about myself as a girl/woman (wow, really?) I monitor carefully how strangers/people I meet react to me and call people and say ‘see? Guys really think I’m (old/fat/irrelevant/undesirable.. Cmon I’m not am I?)’ I’ve tried many mental tricks to get out of it. Played with some dietary solutions that had the flip side of messing with my digestion.
Its making me into a teenage girl and dominating my thoughts for a long time. I need to divest myself of bad self esteem. Or teach myself a solid foundation of self regard no matter what is reflected to me from the outside cause I just don’t think I’m that bad or old. No matter how guys my age might start targeting 23 year olds.
With my moon pluto transit I keep unearthing things I feel ‘made me this way’ or wanting to look into the root of why I’m insecure which is becoming bitterness. Well, I’ve found the root or at least torn out part of it multiple times. It helped for 15 minutes at a time. I need to work this out so…er, I would have a healthy enough self esteem that one man would be enough
Dear Elsa,
I send you all best vibrations and good wishes..
Pluto is also transiting my 12th house in Cap. With Saturn on my MC opposite Sun it’s so exhausting and dark for me. Walking dead from my past got out of their graves…
And contrary to all difficult thing in my life I am getting younger. No wrinkles.
Hugs
This sneaked up on me. It’s not my usual way, that’s for sure.
I guess the lupus Dx hit me harder than I realized on the surface. Add to that the move and the (shocking) decision my son made, dissolving my business and reforming it. This combination did me in and I didn’t even know it.
In reality I have not one thing to complain about – seriously.
Unless I live to be at least 130, I won’t experience Pluto in the 12th in this lifetime. But I will tell you, as a 12th houser (which is pretty funny when you consider my 10th stellium), it certainly plunges us into the abyss. And we can definitely be our own worst enemy. But, the beauty of the 12th house is the GREATER ability to transcend. The greatest forgiveness in first recognizing and then accepting our humanly transgressions.
Light for your darkness and hugs to you Elsa! ???
Interesting perspective. I think that I needed it more than I thought. Saturn is squaring my Sun by sign, ack! Saturn can be a party pooper. Ugh!
Nothing wrong in feeling one’s feelings, but yeah, being down all the time can’t be good for the long haul.
I feel the same way, but I can’t shake it. I don’t have Pluto transiting my 12th, but I’m super Piscean and going througg transiting Pluto square my Mars. Saturn in Sag is harder than I thought it would be as well. I feel very heartbroken. I want more children; I’m 32 and my husband isn’t on the same page with me. I made an appointment to see a fertility specialist–if I can still have children, I’m going to leave my husband. It’s hard. My son is 12, he’s not a little boy anymore. I lost true love. Lots of shit.
Well, this explained alot about my son’s father. His natal Pluto is in his 12th house and transiting his 4th. I was wondering why he has been corpsing since my 55th birthday on 9/25, my daughter’s birthday on 10/21 and yesterday regarding my son’s math grade. He never could remember our birthdays when we were together and never cared about our son’s grades ( that was my area). Obviously his move to Florida to chase and live with yet another woman, he cycles every 6 to 9 months, well, something is up! Not my problem. … I ignore all his correspondence
Such great insight everyone is having. Pluto is currently in my 11th house, so how long does it take to move through? As a single, disabled mom of two I really try to use astrology as a compass to keep a peaceful- ish home! And is there any other things to be watchful for? Thanks, from Pisces sun Aquarius moon
Any posts on Pluto transiting the 6th house (or 10th house natal-y)
it’s also a pisces thing..feeling sorry for yourself. I always have to watch the things I tell myself..I so easily fall into that whining to myself state.It isn’t too hard to refrain from whing to others, but really have to watch how I talk to myself and how I think
Thank u Elsa!
You got me where I’ve lived sometimes..
I hear you:-). Love & light!
Sorry, Elsa. It’s a lot to take 🙁
I have this position natally. Have I ever felt sorry for myself? Sure, I’ve wished many a time that things didn’t have to be the way they are, that they could be easier, that I didn’t have to be a major bad ass with this as my chart ruler, but on the balance of things (Libra), it could be worse.
I’ve learnt not only to survive but to thrive in the deep.
I realise I’m commenting 8 years after this was posted and you’ve evolved far away from throwing yourself pity parties. Just thought I’d put it out there.😁