This is loosely related this thread in the forum: Question for Saturn- types who are driven or feel compelled to do the right thing
Often, I believe something is right or correct to do, simultaneously knowing that few people would agree with me. I’ll also be aware that the person (or force) that I’m opposing can probably find legions of people to take their side.
I feel compelled and I take the action, so I do it even though I lack (Neptune) support (Saturn). Next thing I know, I’m one person standing against twenty or thirty or more.
I make significant choices in life, based on what I feel is the best or the right thing to do. Since I’m often acting alone, I best be right in my judgement. I take enormous care that this be case. I’ll examine a situation to the point of exhaustion. This may sound crazy, but I feel it has to be done.
If everyone is backing you, you can ride the tide. If no one is backing you, it’s exactly the opposite. If you’re going to go against the tide, you’ve got to have conviction and this is how I develop mine.
This situation sets up in my life, frequently. More often then average, that’s for sure. It can be something like the fact no one thinks I should be an astrologer. I became one anyway. I remain one, still.
I’m told not to write this or that on an astrology blog. Most agree I am making a serious mistake in my life, writing what I write. I do it anyway.
Sometimes this involves my separating from someone. The person then becomes my victim, in their mind and in the mind of others, and sometimes many others. I don’t agree with this majority opinion. I quietly, but defiantly, stand in opposition to it.
It’s not that my case could not be argued. It could be argued! I could argue it, convincingly. The problem is there is only so many hours in a day.
Because of time and energy constraints I have to make choices. My choice is to remain undefined, like an inkblot. Then people call the blob whatever they wish to call the blob.
I don’t like this, but I accept it because it’s my own fault. If I won’t argue my own case, I can’t expect someone else to do if for me. Even if someone would be willing to argue on my behalf, it would be near impossible, because they don’t know what my case is.
It’s not understood, because I don’t explain it. I don’t explain it because of time and energy constraints!
I’d rather have no defense then a false one. Since I’m the only one who can provide a real defense and I refuse – that’s it.
We all choose what we do with our time. I help people. I’m good at it. I think it’s better to help people, then it is to spend time defending myself to people who shouldn’t be judging me in the first place.
But it’s lonely sometimes. Knowing that I appear to be wrong, even egregiously wrong, when only one side of a story is presented.
Are you willing to stand against the majority? What’s it like for you?