I like to solve problems so scan for solutions to mine all the time. Currently I feel blocked for a variety of reasons but more specific to the blog, I just can’t seem to come up with anything interesting to me that will not upset people, and become over-large or unmanageable, as I outlined here – Uncensored Writing.
The fact is my opinions are often unpopular and provocative and it takes a lot of energy just to get them onto the blog in some form. It is so challenging, it can take a lot of time and thought so once I have said got something up here (I am talking about things along the lines of the Government as Daddy for the Single Mother and the like) I will have work backed up. This means I have to post the thing and then turn and refocus on other work.
But what happens. if I am not expressly careful is I wind up having to explain or defend myself all day long and then someone gets pissed… and maybe you can see this from my perspective.
If it were my job to set charges and then watch fires burn then that would be one thing but I am personally not into that at all. I mistaken as being into that but what I am really into and really care about is communicating my ideas because I know they’re sharp. They are pointed and they can take you somewhere (Mars Mercury in the 9th) however all the sparring is a HORROR for me. I have Libra and I hate it as you can see quite vividly in this video where I came on to plead for decorum on my blog.
So this becomes the great challenge: How can I write something and not go down in flames?
I was thinking tonight, I have all these ideas – I have hundreds of ideas, most of them innovative but my ideas are not what people like, at least not the first time they hear them. I like you guys and being Italian, I want to feed you. But I feel right now, it’s as if all my ideas are “liver” and no one in the house likes liver. ::smiles::
I am hoping this train of thought leads me somewhere eventually. Right now I can get some liver up here now and then but jeez louise it’s difficult.
It’s a strange dichotomy to be simultaneously popular and unpopular. I get on a roll and I am happily clacking away, producing and then someone starts telling me how hideous I am and then someone(s) make a grand exit from the blog and this drama has repeated so many times, I don’t know what to make of it.
I know, I know. Just write what you want, Elsa, but guess what? It’s not your dime. It’s not the skin off your nose. Do you know how many people have stormed off this blog? MANY. Was it really in my best interest to piss them off? Is it ever in anyone’s best interest to piss someone off?