I think I see people a lot clearer then they see me. I base my assumption on how frequently people tell me things I think or feel that are entirely remote from what I actually think or feel and this includes people are very close to me.
I am generally baffled as to how they came to their wrong conclusion and have learned to leave the person with their mistaken reality most the time.
I do this for the benefit of the other person. If you write me a long email about my blond hair, I just accept it because I think if I write you back and tell you my hair is black it will cause strife for no purpose. How you can look at my pictures and videos and come to this wrong conclusion is anyone’s guess but I can tell you mistakes of this magnitude are made frequently (daily?) so you can imagine what a job I’d have trying to undo this stuff all the time. My personal life is a different story.
I do try to keep things straight with my friends and family and have at least limited success. I have a couple friends who might make a suggestion as to how I feel but if I tell them I feel differently, they will stop, listen and believe what I tell them.
It’s like the doc (she is actually a PA) I have been seeing for 10 years who has learned to listen carefully to diagnose me because she has learned it is never as it seems.
This situation makes for a very lonely life. I am not sure if you can imagine but when someone is commiserating with you regarding feelings you don’t actually have there is not an real exchange there. A surreal one – yes.
Neptune in Scorpio = hologram exchange of energy.