I feel I have a negative “affective presence” at this time. I’ve just learned this term. It means, my presence has a negative affect on the group.
I don’t think it’s always been this way but it’s this way now. I give this to Pluto transiting my first house and perhaps my Scorpio heavy, progressed chart.
I have known this for some time and I have tried to do something about it. I’m still good, one on one, but in groups – forget about it. I’ve experimented and I’ve found that an epic effort on my part, moves the needle about the width of a hair. This is leading me to withdraw, in the interest of all involved.
Pluto in the first house is sometimes referred to as a “lone wolf”. I’ve observed this for decades but now I’m living it.
I get a lot of complaints from people, all the time but as I just told the last person who contacted me, authenticity is a value of mine. If I come across as raw and unrefined, it’s because I am raw and unrefined. I’ll say it again, I don’t have a way to hide Pluto in my skirt.
I also think this is likely to get worse with Pluto in Aquarius. I would not choose this transit at this time, but what can I say, I’m forever, hapless.
How does your presence affect the group?