I am 31 years old and throughout my life i have felt that true happiness has eluded me. I have had many moments of achievements, fun, togetherness with friends and family but a strange seriousness always engulfs me sooner or later. I had difficult childhood in a way that I felt unwanted and invisible from my mom.
Later also, it has been hot and cold. I always feel her mothering style is more strict and disciplinarian than friendly and warm. Relationship with my eldest sister has also been source of strife and sadness, no matter how hard we try, it has been hard to get along and recently we have almost stopped talking.
I am happy with my husband in my marriage but my own family situation has left me discontent and I often wonder, will I ever have a smooth family life. I feel alone and miss having an elderly person in my life whom I can turn to for warmth and support.
You may not like reading this, but I mean to help. You sound stuck to me. You’re 31 now. Old enough to understand that people (including mothers) have limitations.
I am not saying that you had a great childhood. With your Moon in Scorpio near Saturn, I’m sure you did not. However, your childhood is over. Stay with me, please…
You have a planets in Sagittarius and a strong 9th house. This gives you the gift of perspective. You are choosing to see this glass as half-full. Mars and Neptune in Sagittarius messes with Mercury in Virgo in your chart. You are disillusioned when you could just as easily be inspired.
Saturn will be transiting your Mars, Mercury, Neptune square over the next year. Now is the time to grow up your view. Because in the future, you are going to be the elderly one. If you don’t warm up yourself, you’re going to be the one who offers little to the younger generation.
I am suggesting you are turning into your mother. If you don’t like this, mind what I’m saying. Because you carry her legacy (Moon in Scorpio), whether you like it or not. But what you do with this situation is entirely up to you.