I feel like I am stuck in a rut. Life is passing me by and I am grasping at air.
I wrote a book and found an agent but no publisher has said “yes” yet. It’s been over a year now since it started being shopped around.
I will be 39 soon and I really want a child… but I have fertility problems. Each time I am ready, some other problem is discovered. Sometimes I’m not even sure I am up to having a child. What’s wrong with me?
I live in a nice house with a husband I love. We’re okay money-wise but I feel strangely empty. Is this a mid-life crisis or something else?
No, it’s not a midlife crisis. That would be much simpler. Instead it’s a massive Neptune transit and you are being forced to cope with copious amounts of confusion.
Now there’s good news and bad news here. The bad news is, you shouldn’t expect clarity anytime soon. I’m talking years, not months. Honestly, you aren’t going to know exactly what you’re doing until about 2010. This is also the good news, and I’ll explain.
Someone told me once, they were really glad they did not run the world. She said she was grateful there were higher forces at work. “Because left to my own devices, I would have chosen much less than what I got…” she explained. She wanted a husband, but she said she had no idea there were men in the world as good as the one she wound up with. If she’d been able to write her own ticket, she’d have shortchanged herself.
So just imagine, you had the power to publish your book today. Just think about that. Would it be as satisfying as letting it happen organically? Probably not.
You have some Leo in your chart, so imagine this: think about your life as a movie you’re living. This Neptune period is part of your movie. It’s not the beginning or the end. It’s just a segment, but it’s key to the plot. And it’s uncomfortable but it’s the only way to get to the next scene! Can you do that? Of course you can.
Neptune transits teach faith, whether you like it or not!!! Thankfully, faith is ultra-valuable, and I’ll give you a practical example.
You and I are in similar circumstance. We both have unpublished books – a year in the pipe. But you are anxious, and I am not. I have no anxiety at all because I have faith – in buckets.
I know the universe acts in my best interest…always.
I know timing is divine…always.
I have complete faith that things play out in way that is perfect…for everyone.
It will help you tremendously during this period if you can cultivate similar beliefs. Good luck.