It’s fair to say, I’m a Mercurial astrologer. I’m definitely the only one running around claiming that Mercury trumps Pluto, though I know this to be true.
I’m not alone, though. Astrologer, Lois Rodden, had a particular interest in Mercury. The (low) review on her book is funny. The person claims it’s for “brainiacs”. Maybe the reviewer is right. I’ve been called a brainiac before. I guess that’s better than, “bitch”.
I’ve written before about how sometimes my Mars-affected mind will have an involuntary impulse. Like all those times in the gym, I’d see some guy walk by and think mounting him. It’s disturbing, okay?
Then there’s my packed 8th house. The taboo things that cross my mind are truly freakish. Please God, don’t ever let technology display a person’s thoughts in a bubble over their head! But then today, I had a new disturbing thought.
It occured to me how easy it would be to drive this certain woman insane. I could get her all pissed off, sputtering, with her head threatening to explode, probably with one small remark.
Can you believe this? That’s gaslighting! That’s trolling! I hate stuff like this.
I have definitely lashed out. I have definitely said vicious things to numerous people in my life, but that’s overt, see? That’s my Mars conjunct Mercury. It’s anger.
The impulse to cause harm in a sneaky, undermining way has never come upon me. This is anger too, and it caused me another shock. Because while I’ve known I don’t crave this woman, I had no idea I loathed her, which clearly I do, or doing something like this this would not have come to mind.
I’m going to leave her be, of course. But I was alarmed to see pop up from my depth.
Astrologically, I give it to Mars retrograde in Sagittarius squaring natal Pluto in Virgo. You know how people say they would never do something? It’s a deep (Pluto) truth (Sagittarius) that’s been exposed here. I have the capacity to at least attempt to damage or destroy a person, mentally.
My Mercury in Libra is disgusted by this…and my 9th house isn’t too thrilled either. I may like the expanded knowledge, but it’s not exactly high-minded, is it?
Is there someone in your life, you might loathe more than you realize? Does your mind misbehave too?