I don’t know exactly what happened today, or exactly when this started because I passed out, last night. I was just exhausted. So today, I didn’t feel good. I reeeeeeeally didn’t feel good and I couldn’t figure out why.
I try to figure things out because lupus is so weird. But I just don’t know what was going on, but I did know I’d better hang it up and get in bed. So I did that…and even broke out my heated (in the fingers) motorcycle gloves, put them on and turned them on high.
My hands weren’t cold, which used to be common. I just couldn’t really feel them, or the tops of my thighs, since yesterday. I don’t know. Could be caused by the bone lying on my spinal cord. I just don’t know. But I wore the gloves for ninety minutes and it did help my hands.
My husband came home, late. Twelve hour day at work. I fed him and we got in the bathtub, per our habit. I got out and was shocked when I saw myself in the mirror. Bright red lupus rash on my face.
“Look at this! I didn’t even go outside today.” I know not to ignore these pervasive sick feelings. I stayed home today, paying attention and trying to discern if what I felt in my arms was “weakness”. That would be a neck thing.
But then I remembered, I did walk to the mailbox to get the mail. So in that two minute period, this happened to my face. It’s phenomenal, really.
I’ll be all right. I just have to lay low until my antibodies chill out. And maybe put the gloves back on and wait.