That sounds very dramatic, “do or die,” but it’s one of the possible energy signatures of Mars aspecting Pluto, as it does today in square. In fact, the reason I bring it up is that is the phrase that sprang to my mind the moment I woke up this morning. It’s the ultimate motivator, right? It is unless you have a deathwish.
My first conscious thought this morning was a jolting, “DO or DIE.” Do you know what I did? I thought, “meh, die,” and snuggled back down into the covers. I have Pluto conjunct Uranus (vague generational deathwish) opposite my sun and trining my moon, hitting nearly everything in my chart. Pluto moon can bring a bit of that desire all on its own anyway. Death doesn’t really motivate me; bring it. What motivates me is having something to say and having to get out of bed to do it. My Mercury is caught up with Pluto and so is my Mars. All my personal planets are involved, motivation.
It occurs to me that I hardly ever hear anyone talk about their own deathwish; it’s always someone else’s. I guess it’s taboo. Having a deathwish energy does not mean you’re going to kill yourself. It can just be as simple as lacking motivation in the whole “do or die” question. The key here is to find other motivation besides “die.” I have a lot of Pluto tied up with a lot of Neptune. That’s a lot of pain/death/escape energy. Pisces wants escape anyway; hook it up with Pluto and… That’s where my own particular deathwish comes from. Sometimes I want it to stop. Still, I’m always looking for the less permanent solution.
There are too many things that are worth living for, like swedish fish. But I don’t fear death. That is the up-side to a deathwish. Once you follow it through logically in your mind it loses its deep fear-inducing quality, and its appeal. It can lead you to discovering a deep well of strength. You’re not just acting out of survival once you’ve found your deeper motivation. Oooo, growth.
Have a deathwish? Do you know someone who does? Do you talk about it?