When someone does something nasty to me, the first thing I do is ask myself if I set it up. I’m not talking about superficial things like attacks on my blog from Internet people. I am talking about deeper betrayals; things that are real and personal to me.
Nine times out of ten, I have set the thing up. I want to happen. I may not be entirely conscious when I set a process in motion, but I am conscious enough.
The tenth time out of ten, I probably set that up as well, lol.
Once I link things up like this, I ask myself (my subconscious) what the hell I am up to. I’ve been doing this long enough, I usually get a quick response.
Twenty years ago, I was horrified by how I had set myself up and why. Today, I’m almost always pleased. I’ve come to trust myself on a deep level.
In case I’ve not been clear – let’s say I am in the room with a live grenade and a dangerous person. I’d rather handle that grenade myself.
Who can relate?