What do you when the person that your life revolved around is no longer in your life?
Is it back to the North Node? Focus on the Midheaven? I feel like I’m fourteen and have way too many options and no real desire to pursue any path. I waver between feeling cheated and feeling pressure to be “doing something”. What if I don’t do anything except go to work, will I be bitter down the road?
You don’t say why the person is no longer in your life. I assume that you lost a relationship that was important to you, but when I read this, I thought it would apply to anyone who has lost a loved one…to death.
I think this question would apply to anyone who has lost sight of themselves after any kind of trauma. Clearly, you’ve been knocked for a loop and stayed in this state long enough to think you may never recover.
This is made even clearer by your considering looking to your North Node or Midheaven for guidance. I understand how a person could think that, but I’d suggest you look to your Sun, instead. The Sun is your creative life force. Who are you, as an individual?
The Sun shows your vocation. The Sun does not require relationship to thrive, and let me clarify that.
The Sun in Libra shines in partnership. So lets say a married Libra loses their spouse, in whatever manner. Do they still shine in partnership? Yes!
It’s as if you’ve lost yourself. Look at the Sun in your chart, it’s sign and placement, for insight and better understanding.
As for your fear of becoming a bitter person, people who are truly living their Sun are not likely to be bitter. You’ll be way too busy shining.
Last, I think some people get into situations like this, because they don’t like their vocation. This book might help: Apollo’s Chariot: The Meaning of the Astrological Sun.
I paid $40 for that book, when it first came out, and I was satisfied. It’s super affordable now. This book is great for anyone trying to understand their Sun, particularly artists!
The point here is that you are someone, with or without that other person. It’s a fact that can be understood and accepted and restore your vital life energy.
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