I am looking for love, again. I’ve had great relationships in the past, but most of them have been long distance with the exception of one which led to her moving to where I was. We kept that going for five years in a very freeform (yet loyal) way, before deciding we made better friends than romantic partners.
Then I met a new girl through a mutual friend and she lives a couple days’ drive away from me. I’ve met her in person now and we have a strong friendship. There might be something there but at this time it’s really not clear; beyond that, we do love each other and talk a lot, but she just got out of a relationship herself. I’ve tried to learn from all my relationships but I’m at a loss for what sort of partner I’d be best with.
I tend to form very strong bonds, but I know I can be an intense person to deal with. If you have any sort of insight as to what I should look for in a romantic partner, I’d be very pleased to hear it because I’m quite confused about how to cure the loneliness I (embarrassingly) feel. Thank you!
Your relationship history reflects your chart (or vice versa). Here’s what I see:
With Venus conjunct Neptune, you are prone to pining. Long distance relationships are ideal for this. The loved one is off at a distance where you don’t have to deal with them in actual human form. You know. They are always clean and sweet smelling. Their hair is always perfect, their legs are shaved… when in reality it is often anything but.
Further, you have Saturn square your Venus Neptune and here again the long distance thing serves. Because Saturn restricts and limits. Venus is love, of course and you see the result. You are deprived (Saturn) of actual love and relationship (Venus), which is something you idealize and yearn for (Neptune).
Further, you’re an Aquarius with Mars in Aquarius so you want lots of space. And you notice that even when your girlfriend is at hand, she is kept at a distance for five years!
So when you consider this alongside the facts of your life… well I am not sure that you’re not getting exactly what you want. Because come on… if you wanted a real relationship, you would find a girl in your town! And you’d find one who had healed from her last breakup! You get the idea.
You can work all this in a different way but I’m not sure you really want to. Your independence, lack of responsibility and feelings of divine discontent may be far too attractive for you to make the adjustments that would alter this. So to answer your question, yes you are matchable. Whether you actually want to be matched is another question entirely.