I chalk this up to Saturn Neptune. When your reality constantly dissolves…
I’m talking to my husband…
“Well I want you to live somewhere where you’ll be happy,” he said.
“I don’t care where I live. How many times do I have to tell you this? It makes no difference. I am a contained person. Or I am a spiritual person. I don’t know what I am but I do know that I am the same happy here, as I am there or there or there or anywhere else in the world. I mean I may have to adjust if I am somewhere new but that only takes about a minute if it even takes that.”
“I can’t see how you can not care where you live. I sure care where I live.”
“I know you do. This is all critical stuff to you.”
“Well to me it’s not. I mean, I like the water but I have been landlocked my whole life and it has not seemed to matter. I like the water but if I lived right on it, what’s that going to do? I’m sure I’d feel no different than I do right here or anywhere else. I could care less. I am telling you this stuff is irrelevant to me. It just makes no difference. I could be working on a chain gang or lying by the pool and that’s not going to make any difference either. I’d know! I’ve done both and don’t recall there being a significant difference in how I felt about… anything. I mean, I still feel exactly like me all the time.”
“Hmm, nothing. Look. This stuff matters to you. You drive into some city and think oh my God! There’s nowhere to set up a mortar!” I snorted. “There is no tree line! Do you think I think things like that? I wouldn’t have a thought like that in a million years. I don’t care if bombs rain down on my head. I don’t care if I live in a city, out of city. I don’t care what country I live in.. I could care less as long as I can get some sun. Okay, I do like sun but hell. Sun is common. It’s not that hard to come by thank God, because it’s really all I need. You however, need an elaborate set up with a perimeter and blockades and so forth, so go ahead. Knock yourself out. Get a moat if you want one, but don’t you worry about me. I have come to terms with this. I have learned it is completely irrelevant where I am at so you may as well learn it too. But who I’m with? Now that’s a different story.”
Is location important to you? Where is your Saturn?