This is about an issue I’ve seen come up on your blog a few times in the last few weeks. First the girl having the Saturn Return who lost her man because of her jealousy and the girl today who’s wondering if her hubby to be will be a cheat, etc. I feel like these blogs are speaking to me.
I have these same worries and always have. I think I’m finally realizing that this is what has caused the end of all of my serious relationships. They love me, but can not deal with me. I know I can’t change the old ones, so it’s the current relationship that’s the issue now.
We’ve been together nearly four years and I finally decided that I want to be with him for good. I love him, and he loves me completely unconditionally. I can’t seem to stop being jealous though. I feel anxious all the time. He travels for business and I can’t help but feel sick to my stomach every time! And I have no reason to! I want it to stop but don’t know how.
Now here’s the bad part. I have his e-mail password and can’t stop myself from reading his emails although I’ve never found anything bad in there. Should I just tell him and ask him to change his password? I feel obsessed. Is therapy the answer or am I going through a phase? It’s been the last few months specifically. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just guilt at not being sure about him over the past year and almost leaving a few times.
If this question is too specific or personal, let me know if you would be able to answer it as a consult or in a reading. I’d love to have one done, but honestly, you intimidate me!
I don’t blame you for being intimidated. I am pretty sure I would be intimidated of me too! But if you read here long enough, I think it becomes apparent my focus is on helping whoever shows up and once you see my motives are clean, I think it becomes easier to deal with me. But on to your problem…
This is no way to live. Especially for a double Sagittarius! You’re supposed to be righteous, you know. But I see Saturn in your chart and understand your fear. You’re like that horse stuck in a hole which is a gut-wrenching picture… so I am going to try to get you out of there and if you find yourself loose – for Godsakes, run!
Now you have to play to your strengths and you have five planets in Sadge. So what are your strengths? One of them is storytelling! So how about I tell you a story?
This is the story of your greatest fear. Let’s say your man cheats on you. Not only does he cheat, but you find out like this woman did, that he is cheating with multiple partners! And not only that. One of them is your sister and the other your cousin! And one more thing! He screwed your best friend as well and your second best friend and her sister and her sister’s dog!
Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!
But think about it. What if that actually happened? If every single thing I just wrote were to occur, what would come next in the story, huh?
Would you die?
Would you kill him?
No… I mean you may want to, but you’re not a killer.
The fact is, if all this happened, it would get you FREE. Isn’t that funny? Because if he did all this… you’d just up and leave him! And further, you’d have a hell of a story to tell wouldn’t you? So you’re coming out okay, don’t you think? I think so! And I think like a Sadge! And I think you ought to think like a Sadge as well, because you’re the one with Mercury (the mind) in Sagittarius!
So can you do it? Of course. Will you do it? I hope so. And yes. Tell your Sagittarius boyfriend (who is supposed to travel) to change his password. Tell him the Sagittarius truth so you can both be free Sagittarians. Scared to do that? Think of the story…
“I told him I read his email and that was it! He left me in two seconds and after that, I…”
See? Life is an adventure and the adventure goes on. And one more thing.
If you do get your high mind back, for Godsakes when you see another sink hole… an exposed password for example, stay way, way, way back. Just keep that horse picture in your head and that ought do it.