doublecappy writes regarding the 8th house / Scorpio phenomena of being sucked in and repelled at the same time:
“Interesting. I wrote a story about this years ago. How do you solve it? I guess there’s really nothing you can do. Transcend, maybe?”
doublecappy – That may be a way out (escape) but I don’t think it’s the key. The key to becoming comfortable in your un-comfort zone is to expand your zone of comfort! You can do this by facing your demons and owning your own shadow.
For example, I am with a man who has killed a lot of people. If I transcend this fact… well what the hell is that? It’s a joke. If this isn’t clear, just compare it to what I did do.
I stayed in my un-comfort while he told me his stories. I dealt with my deep feelings as they surfaced until I came to understood and integrate everything he is on a deep level.
He did the same when it comes to the shadow in my life (which is comparable to his, don’t doubt it). This is why I write so freely about all this, can you tell?
As my friend and astrologer, Claire-France Perez put it, “I have consumed the shadow… all of it, every single bit of it.” And I’ll tell you how it feels:
I am not attracted or repulsed. I am just there.
A person is only repulsed because they refuse to acknowledge the thing in themselves. They are attracted for the same reason and hence people like me (or the soldier) are considered “magnetic”… which is not our fault – The topic of the day.