This is for Mercury in Scorpio and today’s Moon in Capricorn. Regarding the young man from the soldier’s church who committed suicide last week.
“I went in there and his mother is devastated. His girlfriend… they were going to get married and she is devastated. I mean, devastated. Why does someone do that, P? What is so bad you have to go and kill yourself?”
I didn’t answer.
“I had them both in my classes. He was in the church and he met her… she was an abused kid. She was from an abusive background and then she met him, they got hooked up and decided to marry. She came to church and to my classes because she was going to convert so they could get married.”
“Yeah, and she worked real hard. She’s a good kid, they both were. So they were both taking the classes and then he was a year older… left for college and she was going to follow him a year later. But now he’s dead. He’s dead, P. I can barely believe it. What’s she going to do? I don’t see how she can ever get over this.”
I didn’t say anything.
“They were in there… they are crying their eyes out, P. The women are devastated. I mean the mother is devastated. The girl is devastated. He was all she had and why? What could have been so bad to cause him to do something like this?” he asked.
“Well, I have an idea if you want to hear it.”
“Well let’s see. He’s leaves there and he’s supposed to be over here, going to college. So he tells one person he’s going one place, tells the other he’s going the other place but instead he’s in San Francisco.”
“And he puts all this identification on his body… takes his cell phone, texts both his parents, this is not your fault, sets the cell phone down where it can be found and then jumps from the bridge.”
“Yep, that’s what he did.”
“He was probably gay,” I said. “Probably gay and what’s he supposed to do? He’s young and some of these kids are in circumstances where they just can’t bring themselves to confide in anyone. Who can he tell that is not going to go crazy on him? No one, so this is what happens. It just goes to show you that you have to allow your children the option of being gay because some of them are gay. And if you won’t accommodate this, you put your kid at risk of having to jump from a bridge to escape and there is no excuse for that. You simply have to tell your kid the sky is not going to fall if they are gay. And you see how this fits. He’s Catholic so that’s a good reason… he can postpone having sex with the girl which he doesn’t want to have anyway. Can’t make her feel very desirable. Everyone is hiding.”
“His girlfriend? I know her pretty well and I just don’t think she’s going to be able to recover from this.”
“Well she might if she knew what happened. If she knew what drove him and understood it was not her fault she might have a chance but it will probably never occur to her seeing as she is part of a community where no one is going to talk about this. I would tell her if I could. It sounds like she’s been through all kinds of things. Tossed around by her family and now this. How much is one 18-year-old supposed to take?”
“She’s been through a lot.”
“Well I would tell her, that’s all I can say. I would clue her into what it seems is the reality of this situation. No way should she have to carry this. I have met people doing astrology who have suffered their whole life due something like this. They believe a myth and that’s it. The rest of their life is impacted and for what?”