Someone I rely on let me down today. I don’t yet know why this happened but I really upset by it. I trust the person, implicitly so it was a shock.
There may be some (good) reason for this person did what they did. I don’t know yet. This is someone with excellent character. I’m sure, from their perspective whatever caused them to do this constitutes a good reason in their mind. I may even agree with them, once I’m done being upset. I’m halfway done now.
After feeling profoundly upset for several hours, I decided to accept the situation do the thing I was relying on them to do, myself. I figured the fact I was so upset was a sign I was becoming dependent on them. I don’t like dependent. I like being independent, so I forced myself to go do the thing I thought I couldn’t do and sure enough, I got it done.
I don’t know what my future relationship with this person will be. But I do know that in the future, I will be helping myself before looking for help.
I think people prefer to help a person who at least tries to help themselves. Though don’t be misled. I pay this person to help me. I hire them often. But today I fixed my own car, because guess what? My father was a mechanic, there is a thing called, “youtube” and I’m not exactly stupid.