I am planning to visit an older lady who is ill and lonely. In discussing this, someone asked if I would like someone to come with me to visit. I surprised myself by responding, “No thank you. I’m a bit of a loner.”
I sent the email but wondered if what I said was true. I definitely wanted to go meet this gal by myself. Will we get along? I want to find out if this is something I can do regularly. Will she be clingy? Intellectual?
The person who told me about her felt we’d hit it off. You can see how putting a third person in the equation might muddy things. I would also have less control.
I do love to be free and independent. If I met a third person, I would have to adjust to their timing. What if they’re a turtle? What if they’re clingy? So am I a loner?
In pondering this, I searched around. There are a lot of published quotes made by (supposed) loners. I relate to them, mildly, which is not saying much.
I searched this blog and found this post from several months ago. It’s a bit embarrassing. Someone had characterized me a loner at that time. It’s appears I’m wearing the tag.
I have Venus square Neptune and Saturn transiting my 12th. I’m also mutable; it’s easy to see how this could happen.
I’ve mulled this around for awhile now. I think I really am a loner. I don’t want to be. I love hosting dinners. I love going to lunch with friends and I love travel or at least I used to.
It makes me wonder if I am a loner at the moment due to transits or if I am just finding out who I really am, when everything is stripped away.
I believe it’s the latter and I believe I am going to embrace this at this point. The fact is, I am turning into, Henry, and nothing can stop it.
Are you growing in self-understanding? Does astrology help?