Feeling Seriously Disillusioned?

Neptune God of the Sea by waterI had a client the other day, I struggled to find words to describe what I saw in her solar return. The is nothing personal to her. She’ll rise to whatever occasion. But I wound up writing about the feeling you have when you’re at a party in an uncomfortable dress.

Maybe the dress doesn’t fit. Maybe it’s out of style.  Or how about the poor gal who got dresses to the nines, to attend church on Easter with her fiance’s parents. She looked nice, teetering on her spiked heels. He stood next to her wearing cargo shorts. Arrrrrrrrrrrrgh!

I see people all around, myself included, finding out things are not as easy as they thought they’d be. For example, I can’t just go out in our yard and grab a perfect, juicy peach from the tree. I have to prune the tree, thin the fruit, watch for pests and any number of diseases…never mind the birds and the deer who will be happy to munch our entire crop.

Illness isn’t easy. Aging, and arthritis in particular is a shock when it happens. We’re all sick of paying more at the store for a smaller portion. This is a long way from the days where people believed they could but out a picture of a Corvette, put it on their wall and have the Corvette come to them. Yeah! If you bust your ass and  you’re super-lucky!

I remember when Sean Penn met Hugo Chavez. I wrote about it because they were both Leos, having their photo op. People in Venezuela are now hunting dogs, cats and pigeons for food.

I hope you can see the theme in this.  Life is constantly changing. I’ve had very good years…and very bad ones, haven’t you?

The current deal can be chocked up to Saturn squaring Neptune, post the era when Jupiter was conjunct Neptune. I wrote about this extensibility at the time. 2008 or so.  The BIG FOG.  What we see now, is the veil dropping.

On the upside, maybe we can all go back to being normal human beings now. Doing our best, but subject to failure. It’s the little things that matter. Can you forgive a person? Can you forgive yourself? Can you deal with being stuck in an uncomfortable dress for a year of your life?

How about pain that makes things harder to do?  Can you stay inspired even it is difficult?

If so, this next year can be as good as any other you’ve had.  There are always opportunities and so much to learn.

If you’re interested in this topic or struggling with it, no one in the world has covered it the way I have. Check it out – Staying Stable As Reality Morphs. It will definitely help you.

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Feeling Seriously Disillusioned? — 11 Comments

  1. I remember when Sean Penn met El Chapo. It would be interesting to have biodata on Chapo, who has the world convinced of his Robin Hood persona, while his henchmen have killed 20,000 to stay in his good graces, and the Mexican government must have bent over backward to let him escape. I will comment that Sean Penn disgusts me. Apparently he screwed over the Mexican actress to get his story as soon as she set up the interview. And then he calls himself a journalist…

  2. I want to give you a standing ovation for this post, Elsa! I can’t think of another point in my life where I have been so disillusioned, so disheartened, so disjointed, so depressed, so uncomfortable, so bent out of shape. And it shouldn’t be that way–I’m blessed more than I can ask for!

    This sky, it seems, is forcing me to straighten out my mindset, rid myself of a traumatic past, find new ways to cope and to truly reach out for help, start being grateful instead of hateful. I guess that’s the power of a mutable grand cross? Mercury rules over half of it! My mental faculties were overdue for an adjustment. ?

    • Wow, you took the words right out of my mouth! That is EXACTLY how I am feeling! I won’t wish it on anyone but it’s nice to know I’m not alone.

  3. My solar return coming up this August has SR MC exactly conjunct my natal 8th house Saturn, 7th house in equal. I have no idea what this means, except my Aquarius Saturn natal is part of a t-square opposed my Leo Sun ( 2nd or 1st house) and square my 4th house Scorpio Neptune.

    I need to save up for a reading to find out. I am worried. Saturn is transit square my Moon and Pluto until October.

  4. I was disillusioned back in 2009, now it’s just a way of life. The being distraught is worse. No matter how little I want or need from life, I always get less. SO sick of it. Like is a gift-for some people.

  5. I’ve bookmarked this post, I’m going to refer to it often.

    Especially this: “How about pain that makes things harder to do? Can you stay inspired even it is difficult?”

    I’m starting to make real progress in a creative field I’ve worked toward for a long time with much time and study invested. At the same time I’m increasingly hobbled by a form of arthritis and related fatigue. I’m unsure about navigating the social aspects of it (such as when or how to tell people about some limitations that come up) but I can feel my spirit is strong and I want to make the most of opportunities that are coming my way. It seems like “bad timing” but waiting for some magical perfect moment isn’t going to happen, so this is it, flaws and all!

  6. But I wound up writing about the feeling you have when you’re at a party in an uncomfortable dress.

    I have that feeling when they won’t let you in club or even on the line – unfortunately, it’s not just one year, it’s been a long long decade.

    I have to prune the tree, thin the fruit, watch for pests and any number of diseases…never mind the birds and the deer who will be happy to munch our entire crop.

    The deer went after my poor little baby apple tree (which is my third try at an apple tree) for the second time. So now I’m spraying it all the time with deer repellent. (My first try on the apple tree the deer killed it off – not that it was making it anyways. The second try I got hit with an apple tree specific disease from around here. My third try on the apple tree I picked one that was resistant to the typical diseases around here.) It’s ok except for the deer.

    This is a long way from the days where people believed they could but out a picture of a Corvette, put it on their wall and have the Corvette come to them.

    OK, I was never that for that, whenever it happened.

    People in Venezuela are now hunting dogs, cats and pigeons for food.

    The whole world economy is in a mess, except for the US, which trudges along. Back in 2010 it was the US that had the problem, not the other way around.

    Life is constantly changing. […] I wrote about this extensibility at the time. 2008 or so. The BIG FOG. What we see now, is the veil dropping.

    I guess I could see through the fog for the most part – things now look like things have been for a decade or so.

    On the upside, maybe we can all go back to being normal human beings now. Doing our best, but subject to failure. It’s the little things that matter.

    One would hope, but the remarkable thing about living around here is that little things get penalized, which makes no sense, but there it is.

    If so, this next year can be as good as any other you’ve had.

    Having things change to the real upside would be nice.

    max
    [‘Not counting on it though.’]

  7. Thanks Elsa. Good post. Looks like I am going to try to read up on this further to understand the dynamic. I do plan to buy your workshop material coming up. Sad thing about Venezuela – I was an exchange student there in the 70’s. My exchange family has left the country and is doing ok. (They found me on Facebook). I personally thought the area I moved to in 2006 would solve all my problems. In 2016 not so much. Trying to be pragmatic though. Wishing you well.

  8. It is heart wrenching……I hope it was a good experience for your husband when he was there. I was 17, with a good family, very protected. Not a lot of blonds where we were however, and people would like to come up to me on the street and want to touch my hair (long blond hair at the time). We were in San Bernadino (a Jewish enclave there – very nice neighborhood on the side of a mountain). They were originally living in the Lake Maracaibo region.

    I am glad my exchange family got out.

    The energy – the Saturn/Neptune energy is hitting me really hard tonight. Maybe it is because of Memorial day, and sometimes when the moon is in Pisces I am too much of a sponge (I do not want to be that way). Feels like undertow. Great post. Thanks again.

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