I was amazed to read the comments on the “What Do You Like About This Blog” blog. They are so flattering I am afraid is looks as if I were digging for compliments or something which was not the case. I really do lose the plot at times and I thought after the comments, I would elaborate.
I don’t know where the edge is and I have this in common with the soldier by the way. We both have and have had such extreme lives we don’t know when we cross into territory other people cannot understand or relate to. And I bet some of you Scorpios out there know what I am talking about. Everything is okay and then all sudden – whoosh. You cop to something you know or you feel and someone’s eyes bug out or you see them jump back.
They become repulsed… which of course ultimately attracts them, which repulses them and so on. But if you’re the person who steps in it like this you just wonder why you had to do it. Why did you have to fart on your blog? Why? Why could you have just avoided that but noooooooooooo.
So anyway this happens to me. I am old so understand it and I can cope pretty well. But I definitely go through times like this and current episode came on after I revealed I would like to be with the killer. It’s my preference.
Now this is true and if I could talk to you like I do my inner circle, I could get you to understand it I’m sure. But as is I have no idea if I am understood or not… if that is a fart or not.
Now I know some people get it. I am just sure of this but when I write something like that and no one (or very few) react to it then I get to wondering if I have gone too far. And it is not that I question my thoughts or my feelings because I don’t. I question my choice to reveal my thoughts and my feelings because if people cannot understand what I am saying or relate, then what’s the point? It’s like speaking French to the English or something.
Saturn in Virgo asks if I could have better conveyed my meaning or if I should have waited or edited or been more vague. And this is what the conversation with my friend last night was about.
“Do you think people know what I mean?”
“I don’t know,” she said.
So here I am knowing my movie is solid but wondering if I might have mixed up the episodes or something. So that’s what I mean by “lost the plot”. And my question today was designed to help me find it and it worked so thanks for that. Thank you, thanks to everyone who took the time to share their thoughts and feelings. It much safer not to, huh?