Recently an organization sent me a survey. They wanted my honest evaluation of how they were doing in addressing very specific goals. I care about the organization and I share it’s goals. I took the time to answer the questions as clearly and honestly as I could.
I feel the organization is failing completely in a certain niche. This niche is important to me, but it is a small niche. I seriously doubt that anyone but me would mention it. However, this is the point of polling everyone, right?
I felt an obligation to mention this flaw, even though it could be seen as nitpicking. Because overall, the organization is doing extremely well. So why not just say that? Hey! I’m satisfied!
I am satisfied! But I still felt obligated to communicate this one failing. It’s not me who is being failed, see? I am satisfied, but I can see the (small) group that’s falling through the cracks.
Let’s say I am the only person who perceives the problem. If that’s the case, the organization has the option to ignore my comment. Alternately, it might hit them very hard, because what I wrote was real.
I felt I had to do it, so I did it. I mentioned this to my husband, knowing he would not have written such a thing himself. I can’t tell you why not, other than to say he’s not me. \
I thought of some other people-pleasing people I know. Ass-kissers, you might call them. They might have gone on and on gushing about how wonderful everything is.
Bottom line, it takes all kinds. But I still felt the need to apologize…
I told Pisces, satori, I’m just not that cool. It is a lot cooler to be a Pisces…and transcend the minutiae. Nobody really likes a person like me, who will point out the one flaw…the glaring flaw that turns everything on it’s ass.
I feel bad about this. I feel bad about being this kind of person, but obviously I was born – uncool and all. I was born to be the person who makes the remark you did not think anyone would make, ever. The remark that keeps you up at night.
But if people like me walk off the job, then what? Circle-jerk?
So today I apologized for being pedestrian but intelligent. It’s not a good combo but it’s what I am. I don’t think I am meant to be less discerning.
Do you ever feel regret for your very essence? Secondly, have you ever regretted asking a question, when the answers came in?