Regarding my blog and various efforts I have made in the past that have seemingly come to no end, this is never the case. I don’t think experience is ever wasted and the more you have the better off you are especially if you take the pains to process it. I have had many hideous experiences in my life but find I routinely draw on whatever it is I learned at the time.
For example, I have been in court A LOT especially for someone who has no reason to be in court! I have a significant number of clients who consult with me because they are going to court or to some kind of mediation. This is strange since I do not advertise for this kind of work but the people contact me anyway and sure enough, I have the cards they need.
If you pay attention it becomes apparent over time that there is a grand design and what happens in your life, even if it entails tremendous suffering is meant to give you skills or teach you lessons you are going to need in the future.
If you notice this, it is pretty easy to accept things when they happen and I don’t mean be passive. I am inclined to fight with all I have but there are some fights you are just not going to win / meant to win and in those cases you are going down.
Thing is when you go down you come up somewhere else, especially someone like me. That I have a lot of energy is undeniable. That I will put forth a lot of effort is also undeniable. What I have found is I can suffer any loss provided I meet this criteria: That I know I have done my best.
I know I did my best for my daughter (she knows this too). I also did my best in my failed relationship with the AMF (he knows this too).
What I am trying to say is whatever it is you are trying to accomplish, all you can do is your absolute best and after that it is up to the fates. Personally, I find the fates are pretty smart.