“scary stuff but I like the way you put it out there Elsa”
Kingsley – sometimes I understand you completely but other times I am completely baffled and it’s probably my own confusion. See, I don’t see anything scary about this.
I love the man with nuance. (Venus Neptune) If I gave him the same cup every day it would not have the same punch it does as when I serve it to him at random.
To me this is like his breakfast or his sandwich or his dinner. I always try to put something on the plate he does not expect. Capers in the sandwich. A this instead of a that which he expects. I try to enhance his life via these subtle means and gestures and since he operates on a similar wave-length, it works.
I don’t know how much of this he gets… it is also very possible (probable) I do more than I have awareness via my subconscious because he is very similar to me.
By that, I mean he can plant seeds in me that I don’t always know are there and then see them sprout. On the surface it works like this:
“I like whipped cream in my coffee sometimes.”
Two days later I walk into the bedroom with coffee – whipped cream on top. We don’t talk, we just do. And most of the stuff is at least partially unconscious on one or both of our parts so frequently 6 months will pass and then someone wills say..
“Well, that’s why I did that and that and that…”
Right now I am writing his son, paying out like a slot machine. I am paying out so profusely I have no control over the flow of information, it is just pouring out. Not like vomit (I don’t think) but definitely a tidal wave and no one and I mean NO ONE is going to be able to process this is real time.
Instead, the soldier, his son and I will be having things click into place now but we will still be having revelations 10 years out.
In whatever case, I don’t see what is scary about this. It is the unseen world but it is all for the good. Why give the man coffee when I can give him enhanced coffee?