Saturn square Neptune. Saturn will hobble a person. Neptune will obscure the cause. I’m back to not being able to walk again. I’m so pissed.
I had this problem last year and figured it out. It was such a shock. I’d get out of the car, and quickly realize, if I didn’t grab onto the car, I’d fall, splat onto the pavement. It took me a couple months, but I resolved that problem completely.
This problem is new and this time I feel overwhelmed by it. I have not been able to get my neck treated in any way that’s effective for six months. I’ve lost confidence…in what? The system?
That’s funny isn’t it? We’re all so disillusioned. If I get this taken care of, it will be by the grace of God.
I’m really not sure what’s going. I might have hurt myself back when we had like…an inch of snow? How I could hurt myself in an inch of snow after living in Colorado for twenty years is a bit of a mystery. But I did manage to get my car stuck at that time and blah, blah. I’ve had an intermittent problem that has varied in severity ever since.
One thing about Lupus, when something happens to me, even a tiny cut on my finger, it doesn’t heal. Well, it does eventually, but it can take a small cut 2-3 weeks to close up. It’s annoying more than anything. But based on that, it’s possible I could have injured myself in the snow four months ago and still have a problem because of it. Say I tore a muscle or something.
If this is the case, it’s probably inflammation which is part and parcel of lupus. But I don’t know. It could be related to my neck. My neck also threatens to cripple me…um…permanently. And it’s inflamed too, duh.
As for not being able to walk, this is the worst it’s been. And the problem is abnormal. I have tried to use a cane and to have it be effective, I have to hold it in the middle of my body.
Have you ever tried to walk with a cane in your way? It’s stupid beyond words.
At least I’m in a good mood. I’ve got 90% of my garden in and it’s looking marvelous. It’s Friday. I’ll start making calls on Monday, I guess.