Most creative people have experiences that feeling when the material seems to come through you, rather than from you. When I get in a storytelling mode I can sit and type all day, having no idea what I’m doing, I just do it.
I have no outline.
I have no agenda other than it’s occurred to me to tell some story.
I don’t have a reason to tell the story and don’t feel I need one.
The impulse is there and I obey it.
I don’t tell the stories to make a point. I just tell stories. Consequently, I produce things I don’t necessarily understand.
I don’t think this is a usual way to work but I don’t know. In my imagination, other writers know what they’re doing. This is my assumption. I think writing is a craft or a skill that a person has honed. This is what people say about writing anyway, but it’s not what I do. I write on crazy faith and adrenaline. I don’t understand my own material beyond the fact it’s a story and the story is true. As a matter of fact, I don’t even try. This is because I am a storyteller, not a story-understander, I guess. The stories come through me but the understanding of the stories does not.
To complicate things, last week some information found it’s way into my hands. It’s by far, the biggest thing I have ever stumbled on in my entire life. It’s a story to beat all stories and of course, I don’t understand it.
I also can’t tell it because I don’t have that impulse. The story is not willing or ready to come through me yet so I just have to sit here I guess.
If you’re a writer or other creative person, do you recognize this? How does your process compare?