I was talking toyesterday, he’s been having some trouble. I hate it when my friends are suffering, even more than when I’m suffering myself. Especially when there is little you can do.
Anyway, we were talking and he came off with this:
“Oh, Elsie don’t worry about me. You have terrible problems and they’re real. My problems are just in my head. My problems are unreal, and yours are real, same as it’s always been.”
On that, I shut up. Because he was right. I have known him for 30 years and the truth of this is utterly undeniable. And I was trying to assimilate his perspective when he added, “Though I guess it makes no difference if your problems are real or if you make them up.”
“Yeah. You suffer either way,” I said. “My problems are obviously horribly real and it has always been that way. But I can’t say I suffer more than you do. Maybe less.”
And this is Saturn Neptune stuff, obviously. He conjures up (Neptune) difficulty (Saturn) while I obscure it. I erase it. And both of us fall prey.
What happens to someone like me when reality hits? Yow! Yikes!
And in Scott’s case, he suffers in advance. And when reality hits him, it’s just as brutal. He sees he has just wasted two, three, four days being miserable for no reason whatsoever.
And what about me? I wasted (Neptune) time (Saturn) as well. I wasted time feeling marvelously happy when I could have been working on my real problems! It’s very strange.
So what about you? Are you like Scott? Me? Both of us, or neither?