Let’s say, I am born and I feel an obligation to someone. And let’s say I act in accord with my feelings for a number of years – decades. Let’s say I am totally diligent and dutiful and immersed in this obligation for years and years and years and then, of all things, I unexpectedly get to a point where I believe I am released from this contract.
Now being as devoted as I was, and as conditioned as I was, I did not walk away without tremendous soul-searching. It’s like spending your life in a cage. When the door to the cage is flung open, you don’t immediately bolt out because you know the decision to walk away will be life-altering.
I thought this through to my core. I didn’t want to be haunted. I did not want to be amoral. I didn’t want to do the wrong thing! But I did conclude that walking away was the right thing to do and so I changed my life.
It’s decades later and I have never regretted my decision. I have never had a bad feeling about it or experienced any guilt. This is why I have concluded that it must be possible to fulfill an obligation or to pay your karmic debt or to discharge your duty or whatever you might call it. This has seemed to me to be the case because I am a deeply moral person and not inclined to shirk any duty. I’d know if I was a jerk, basically. But what has happened now is this same scenario has come back into my life after all these years, forcing me to reevaluate.
As it turns out, I don’t feel any different now then I did when I made the decision years ago. It was not a hasty decision! I do feel my debt is paid in full but this is not something I want to screw up on because as always, my soul is on the line.
Do you feel it’s possible to work a karmic obligation or would something like this last a lifetime?