If you have Black Moon Lilith in Aquarius, the pain you’ve experienced through your Lilith placement has made you independent and unique. You learned that if you don’t set your own terms in life, someone else will do it for you.
However your Black Moon Lilith wounds have played out (shown by the house placement of your Lilith), you’ve found that it’s better to keep your distance from the drama. While everyone seems to be scurrying about like little cogs in the machine of the demiurge, you have pulled way back, recognizing that way if life isn’t for you. You carefully maintain a sense of detachment and separateness. And this has become your go-to way to cope. When in doubt, you pull out.
This can sometimes leave you feeling like an alien. Your identity doesn’t fit into anyone else’s box. You refuse to mold yourself into something other people find more digestible. Instead, you cling to your uniqueness as a way to separate you from the world that you can so clearly see is broken. Conforming to an inhuman system is no virtue, and you know this in your bones. So sometimes you wear your differences with pride because they mark you as something more than the unwashed masses. In this way, you’ve bought your sense of peace at the expense of your connection to others.
But it’s not about being different so that you can be better than others. The problem isn’t that other people are sheep so much as it’s a system that is herding people off a cliff. You see how power is abused, money is king, and normal people are ground up in a system that only benefits a select few. You also know the world can be better. There are a million ways humans can organize themselves, and there’s got to be something better than this. So you’ve become someone who can solve problems on a global scale. Even on a personal level, you find yourself always attempting to find a better way of doing things. Overhauling the system is your default.
Of course, this experience can be pretty lonely. There aren’t a lot of job listings or dating ads looking for an aloof genius bent on saving the world by turning it upside down. Not to mention what a heavy burden it is, always trying to rebuild the world. To mitigate some of this pain, lean on Leo, the sign opposite to Aquarius. Leo recognizes that identity can be something that springs from within you, not as a reaction to what is around you. Leo realizes that detaching from the system doesn’t mean detaching from other people. And Leo knows that any new world has to be designed with heart. Without it, you create the very kind of system you want to dismantle.
I could easily write a book on this placement alone, but I’ll end here: This is one of the best places for Lilith to be. Your ability to see the big picture and how to improve it is your superpower. As you strive to build a world that reflects your ideals, Lilith will be standing right beside you. If you can make sure you never lose the love in your heart, there’s no reason you can’t make your new world a reality.
Do you have Black Moon Lilith in Aquarius? What has it been like for you?