I guess it is hard for some people to understand how I could not like attention could write a blog like this. Fact is this is actually a NON attention job. I work at home and do one on one consultations. I am complete unseen save the videos which are not real.
I avoided the big astrology conference in Denver last year because I knew I’d be recognized. Had I been able to go and fly under the wire I’d have been there but those days are gone.
The reason I don’t like attention is I am so frequently crucified and also because people talk to my hologram (who they think I am rather than who I am). This is inordinately hard to deal with because I have no idea how to be their projection!
There is a terrible flaw in people, that I see all the time. When they have a belief about someone or a way of seeing them, they are loathe to adapt it. Only a small minority of people are willing (or able) to change their view which makes this a horror for me. They just don’t want to be wrong. They want to make YOU wrong!
You can see it sometimes on this blog. I’ill make a statement and someone will challenge it. I will come back with mountains and mountains and reams of evidence to corroborate my statement but it is dismissed generally without any consideration never mind, serious consideration.
I don’t like attention because I can’t defend (Saturn) against Neptune and this is overwhelming to me. It happens offline as well on and it puzzles me.
In fact I ran into a stunning example of this a few weeks ago. I asked my husband, “What do you do when a person has a theory and you show them 700 reasons why it’s wrong and they don’t budge? I mean they look at a 100-story tall mountain of evidence that all points in one direction and they conclude it means the opposite thing.”
“Nothing you can do, P. There is just nothing you can do.”
This blog helps a good number of people. Those people go on to help other people and those people go on to help people who go on to help people, etc. As a unfortunate side affect there is a lot of attention directed at me. Most of it is negative but this is also service.
One of the reasons this community is so good is because I absorb and carry all the negative energy, have you ever noticed that? It’s very strange.
The readers here are free to speak and mull around because I catch all the bullets. One way or the other, it’s the way it ends up and no one should worry about too much as I was clearly born for it.
How hard is it for you to come off your story once it’s set? Why is that?