How you look and how you THINK you look are two distinct things. How you look relates most closely to the ascendant, the rising sign, and its condition. Another factor is the placement of the ruling planet, the planet that rules the rising sign. How you think you look is impacted by these same factors but is more subtle. Your attitudes about your own appearance draw on your personal planets as well, even if they’re not in direct aspect.
I have Leo rising which is a proud sign, dramatic. Leo risings tend to have dramatic looks and often dramatic opinions of their looks. Neptune squares my ascendant. Chiron quincunxes. My view of my body is clouded by illusion, changeable, and is complicated by past wounding. My ascendant ruler is the Sun in Pisces, more Neptune.
I have a blended Neptune-Chiron-Sun (Leo) attitude toward my body. “I’m fine the way I am! If you don’t like it, don’t look at it!” But I also am aware of my imperfections in wounded sort of way. With Neptune highly featured, the reactions I garner are hard to categorize. I’m never really sure what others see or even what I see myself. One time I exclaimed: “I’m so old and fat!” and my daughter answered, “You’re not old, mama…” uncomfortable silence… “or fat.” People seem to want to exaggerate or lie to make me feel better about myself.
I even Neptune myself. I tend to carry an attitude that I look better than I actually do. I blur my self-image (Neptune) because of pride (Leo) and because of that I never actually conquer the problem (Chiron).
How do you feel about your body? Does it relate to the condition of your ascendant?