My husband and I just became licensed foster parents. We have not been able to conceive a child. We’ve kind of been waiting for the universe to drop a child in our laps. But my patience with the universe is nearly bone dry. I was a foster child myself, and I’m not sure I can continue to handle children coming and going… and yet, never having a forever family of my own.
I’ve always had a philosophy that life is what you make of it. But it feels wrong to “window shop” for a child like they are clothes or a new car.
Should I trust the universe, or should I actively pursue adoption?
Waiting to be a Mother
Should you trust the universe? Or should you actively pursue adoption? Why can’t you do both? Because I don’t see how you could adopt a child and have it be an error in a universal sense.
I’ll tell you what I think the problem is. The problem is you are not sure of your worthiness. I see Saturn conjunct your Sun and your Moon. You’re afraid. You’re afraid of doing the wrong thing and consequently you are depriving yourself – and your potential children for that matter.
Because you’re a born parent. The Saturn action gives the natural authority, but besides that you’ve a boatload of Cancer. “Nurture” is your middle name.
Apparently, it’s this “window-shopping” thing that’s holding you up and this seems erroneous to me. It’s as if this is something you threw up to act as an impediment, so you wouldn’t have to face your fear.
Face your fear. And you know what? You’ll be fine. You are beyond ready for this.
pictured – Mother Feeding Child, 1898, Mary Cassatt (American, 1844-1926)