My mother passed on Tax Day. It's taken me until the Scorpio moon to say anything here. Mother was 92 years old. I've mentioned her several times.
She told us to not cry over her dead body, it was just a shell. Her spirit would live on.
We had been expecting her death at any time since 2007 when she had her heart attack. She's had a long down hill process since then. She became a worry in July of last year. Remember this thread? https://elsaelsa.com/forum/relationships/we-took-her-gun-away/ And this one? https://elsaelsa.com/forum/lounge/vesicare-and-hallucinations/ My sister took Mother to her home last fall after the nursing home allowed our mother to sign herself out from long-term care. The dementia wasn't bad enough for my POA to override her decisions.
It may be hard for some to understand, but her death is a relief. It's a relief from the constant worry over her. It's a relief from worrying about my sister. It's a relief to know Mother's not in pain. She was starting to have pain in the last few weeks. Hospice took care of that after her last heart attack on March 10. That doesn't mean I'm not grieving. I've been grieving for the past year as she slipped away.
I have kept busy as her POA and executrix-to-be. All of the heirs are in agreement there will be no arguments. Oddly enough, the moon was in Cancer (mother) exactly opposing my sun both when I signed papers to move her into the her last nursing home (hospice) and a moon cycle later when I met with her attorney to give him her will.
Thanks for reading for those that have gotten this far. Our lives are short. Love while you can. 
(((((((((((((((Sue Ellen)))))))))))))))))))))
I send my condolences and love.
I understand the relief @Sue Ellen. It is a shame more people don't, because it is a huge & healthy release to both feel & express it. The relief also for a person who is now unburdened & free. There is joy in that.
Sometimes you can spend a life time grieving for a person, even when they are alive. The grief can be due them never being present in your life, in the role they were meant to play for you. Once they go, the grief can be as equally strong as it would be, had everything in your relationship been ideal.
I am sorry for your loss. You have had such an extraordinarily rough time lately, yet you still manage to shine.
((((((((Sue Ellen))))))))
I understand the relief, completely, and at the same time am tremendously sad for your loss. These two things can, and frequently do, exist together. You have been very strong bearing all of this on your shoulders.
Love and peace to you, in abundance.
I'm so sorry Sue Ellen. I do understand the relief, I've been through a similar situation myself recently and it was the same feeling. Life moves on for everyone
(((Sue Ellen))) I can't imagine what that is like, I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother. It is hard making decisions concerning elderly family members I do understand that part.