We’re most definitely feeling the effects of the full moon tonight. I thought we’d have some kind of mixed bag – see Unpredictable. It’s been that way around here.
Yesterday, I was quite upset. I’d pretty much decided to quit some things I volunteer to do. These things are causing me stress…which present as a Lupus sore (which will rapidly become sores) on my face. No. Thank. You.
So I was going to quit, but then I woke to a text message from a gal I know. She sent it last night when I was asleep. She was thanking me for some work I did. She also mentioned that she was glad to have met my son and that he was handsome. Pretty standard until you realize she lost her 20 year old son, just two years ago. He as in college at the time and I realized at this time, our sons look alike.
I never met her son. But I know this because she brings his picture for All Souls Day. He and my son are the same size, same coloring, same haircut and roughly the same age. Gah. My son was helping me help her. Could have been her son, if he wasn’t dead. I don’t know what to say. It’s almost galling to consider. So that changed my mind, pretty much. One of the things I do is help her. I think I better keep doing that, for sure. I’m ashamed I was even thinking the other…
So that right there shows the ups and down of feelings. I told you (in the newsletter) it was going to be about, mom. My son and I talked some more today. It’s funny what he remembers. And It’s cool, I get to explain myself.
One thing he said was the fan had broken on his laptop. He was not even remotely asking me for another one – seriously. He said it sounds like an airplane. So we got talking about that computer, which I bought for him when he was about twelve. It was a really nice machine. I was flush at the time. This was before the people I worked with stole all that money from me.
He was doing good in school by then. He had my old desktop which was DOA. So I got him this laptop, “for high school”. I also got him this great desk.
Don’t get me wrong. I got the desk from Wal-mart but it was super cool. He loved it and I loved it for him. He’s got his Sun conjunct Saturn – he’s a Taurus, so this was like “wealth” to him and status. He LOVED it.
He told me this today. I told him it was liking sending he and his friend, Quirk, on an adventure. “I’m the kind of parent who thinks it’s a good idea to get a kid some larger shoes, you know they’ll grow into. That’s what the desk was…
I did buy him a computer today. As we talked, it hit him. “If it had gone out during finals, I don’t know what I’d have done.” I did not buy him a fancy machine this time. I bought him what he needs. Something that should last until he graduates. This was all very positive. Jupiter effect.
Coming home with the computer, I did feel sick to my stomach (more of the upset moon). Then I read about someone’s mother dying in the forum. It’s upsetting. I feel real bad about it and I just hope there are no more calls or emails tonight.
How are you doing under the full moon?