Kingsley wrote:

“I think you mentioned the twelfth house previously Elsa. Things come from out of the blue in the twelfth. Its hard to say what might be “going on” in that hidden house. All will be revealed when one planet after the other crosses the ascendant.

I guess you will have to trust your instincts or react to a script in life.”

The stellium does fall in my 12th house and I feel, Little Match Girl-esque. A 12th house full of Capricorn is a Saturn Neptune exchange. I already have a strong Saturn Neptune signature natally now exacerbated by the current sky and it’s really something to behold.

I can kiss reality goodbye, that’s for sure but what about that Little Match Girl? What does she do exist so that others may think and feel things that have nothing to do with her?. And what is her problem anyway? Her problem is not defined. Her reality is not defined.

Reality surrounds her (it’s cold!) but it is irrelevant even as it takes her life.

I have a strong Saturn / Neptune signature in my chart. It is chronically and constantly in play… I have to cope with a constantly appearing and disappearing reality as as attuned and aware of this as I may be, sometimes things happen that truly boggle.

Saturn rules fear and mixed with Neptune (Saturn in Pisces, Saturn in the 12th, Saturn and Neptune in aspect, Saturn in the 10th etc.), hologram fear is always part of the picture.

On the flip side a person will deny or erase their fear and it is quite a phenomena when you witness it up close.  The veil lifting that is. The veil that separates a person from reality, that is.  Last night I was lying in bed with the soldier, chatting.

“Squash me like a bug,” I said.  “Oh no. You could squash me like a bug if you wanted to.”

Continue reading Saturn, Neptune And The Denial Of Reality – What Happens When The Veil Lifts?

My fiance in this story, the man with the nightmares has Saturn in Scorpio in the 12th house (dreams) square Pluto in Leo.

I am talking to the soldier about this in 2003, ten years after the fact. We both have emphasis on the 8th house (death):

“So anyway, he would wake up with these nightmares and I would wake up with him. And he would relay the dream and I would see the thing visually and feel it. A helicopter going down… swirling. Your stomach.” Continue reading Astrology and Bigotry: Dreams, Nightmares and Saturn in the 12th House