I have to go to court tomorrow and have been dreading it for more than month. More than 2 months actually. Matter of fact I have a friend, it’s her birthday tomorrow and I told her weeks ago I would be in court on her birthday and that it was going to be a problem. I went as far as to send her a greeting ahead of time on the chance I be too devastated to deliver on schedule.
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine: Court Tomorrow

When Pluto drops into Capricorn I am going to consider it’s transit to my Moon to be done even though it will still be in very close orb. I think it’s pretty common for astrologers to give planets a 5 degree orb (particularly Pluto) and while I would not argue this I know for me personally, I am such a forward looking person I am just not going to remain focused on the embers of what’s been burned to the ground when there is a future out there for me. But boy these last days have been something else.
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine: Last Gasp… Plus Pluto Transit The 11th Loss of Friends, Wishes, Hopes And Dreams

This is it, something like the last gasp of my Pluto Moon transit. Throughout this process “family” stuff has surfaced, specific to emotional patterns of relating. By family I mean my kids and I, my family of origin and going even deeper, things that are in the blood… what you might call, “Italian”.

I remember years ago, I was maybe 19 when I confessed to a bar full of patrons that when I got really pissed off and I mean, pissssed off, I had the urge to spit.

“Spit?!?”
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine: “Hey Elsa! Are You Emotionally Sophisticated?”

Regarding Scrabble, I told you my daughter was freakishly smart and according to the inside cover of the game where we make notes when things are notable…

“Nov 17, 2000, Mosta’s first game. Beats Mommy, score of 288″

Um… she was 5 years old.

I am pretty sure this is what retired me from the game. Sure you want your kid to grow up and best you but not when they’re in the first grade!

I have no way to explain her abilities, you simply had to be there and when I am reminded like this I get a feeling in the pit of my stomach I cannot describe.

Continue reading Speaking Of Mercury Boasting… Cut To Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine

A couple weeks ago the soldier pointed out I was the only one still suffering over what has happened to my family. Regardless of how that sounds, he didn’t mean it in a way that was untoward. He didn’t mean to say I should be over the loss or something like that because he’s lost a child himself and he knows better.

I don’t know exactly why he said it but I was completely unaware this was the case until he made the comment and it’s eased things for me enormously. Because it means everyone else is okay. They others are thriving even which means I’m down to just one person to concern myself with and it’s me.
Continue reading Pluto Moon Transit – Mine: Continuing To Take Stock As This Thing Winds Down

Over the weekend, Michael Lutin pointed out the Moon would only cross Pluto in Sagittarius one more time. Among other things he wrote:

“This is your chance to come clean and settle scores. No matter where we have Sagittarius in our horoscopes, however,
this is the last kick of the donkey so final punishments and final rewards will be due at last.”

I took note as this so personally affects me. It’s the Moon over Pluto triggering a Pluto transit to my Moon after all.
Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine: “This Is The End…”

The full Moon on Tuesday was interesting on the Pluto Moon transit front. I look at full moons as time when all the lights come on (for good or ill) and with Pluto involved you can expect to see some very dark place illuminated which is what happened to me while the moon was full.

Now I didn’t have a bad day. I am awfully conditioned to this by now but I got to thinking yesterday and wondering if now that Pluto has turned direct, might I have seen the worst? Might this be it, the bottom?

Continue reading Pluto Moon Transit – Mine: The September 15th, Full Moon Square Pluto… And What’s The Titanic Have To Do With It?

Speaking of things never ending, I searched my blog to find the scott tag so I could link it and found Ze FelloCello.

Ze FelloCello is my daughter. She is a Gemini and she was bored a couple summers back when school was out so she asked if she could comment on my blog.

I told her it would be fine as long as she stated her age so this is what she did under screen name Ze FelloCello.

I’d say I am stunned at her 11 year old writing voice but as you know I am not because as you know, I remember her.

Voice of Ze FelloCello

It’s Wednesday, the day I was supposed to recover something I lost long ago as mentioned on My Daughter, The Loss You Can’t See

Turns out this is going to have to be postponed and you’ll never guess why.

The woman I have to meet has to go to a funeral…

::shakes head::

Heather writes on Strength, Weakness, Projection and Crap

“I grieve for Mosta and Vid and you and the soldier for the loss of those dreams, but I’m so thankful to have had a small piece of your daughter through Mosta quotes and her beautiful smile that shows through her eyes in every picture…”

This is very strange thing and it came up in another form this weekend.  It has to do with loss in a void… it’s very personal and because of this comment, I’m going to explain.

I started writing online in 2000 and introduced my daughter as “Mostacciolia” (her chosen screen name) in 2001 when she  5. My daughter is inordinately bright, she is arguably a genius having tested in the 99% percentile and she like everyone else in my family, the girl has a mouth on her.

Continue reading Pluto Transit To The Moon – Mine: My Daughter, The Loss You Can’t See