eva writes on Fatalistic Statement Regarding The Saturn Return

“Elsa, I see your point. But take your example — the boy who lives at home with his mom. You can’t doom him and say well, because you did this your life is a complete waste, and the only happiness you have a chance of getting for yourself is going to come when you’re close to dead…”

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eva, I don’t mean to doom him. I just think there is a point of maturity and once you go beyond it you don’t get any taller… until Saturn comes around again. Life is kind that way. You get a second chance and I have seen many, many people take the second chance and run with it further than they ever dreamed possible. Case in point, the soldier and I.

A person’s ability (or inability) to do this is contingent on what they did (or did not learn) over the prior 28 years. The humble learn, the arrogant fall if for no other reason then they become aged. The people who fare well when “close to dead” are those who have matured and developed. The others?

Well they are scared to death of course.

See the lesson?

Face your fear or… um…face your fear.

Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto have recently moved into Earth signs. What have you noticed post this shift?

Dear Capricorn,

Sure Venus in Scorpio is obsessive and passionate but how about self-protective, hmm? How about Scorpio’s famous will to survive? I am sorry but I don’t have much sympathy. Why would I have sympathy for someone who is doing exactly what they want to do? Do you think this is accidental? Do you think you lack purpose? I do not agree.

I think you are using this guy as an excuse not to apply yourself. He is a way and means for you to find and feel an edge. He is a way you can feel pain and manifest your fear of failing. It’s got to be you because how can any of his doing when he’s not even on the scene?

Your friends don’t understand? I bet they do understand. They understand you are frothing at the mouth for a man who has no interest. They understand you are doing lousy in school and basically wrecking your life and while you’ve certainly got the right, I would not recommend it.

I recommend you clutch it up. I recommend you throw glass of cold water in your own face. Whatever it takes to snap yourself out of this, because you are in college now and you are supposed to paying your dues – as opposed to disabling yourself and calling it “love”.

Good luck.

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Three years later we discussed this again.

“You said you weren’t afraid of me and I want to keep it that way,” he said. “I don’t want you to ever feel afraid of me.”

I considered what he said but had no idea how to respond. I knew he was serious but the idea I would be afraid of him was foreign. It just seemed remote and unreal to which can be explained by the Saturn (fear) interaction with Neptune (ethereal) with Neptune in my chart. Logically I could understand but how are you supposed to make yourself feel terror you don’t feel any terror?

Continue reading Fear And Family Patterns: Lacking The Sense To Be Afraid?

I know people who have read me for awhile, 3 or 5 years or something, and they have a real feel for the pieces I throw up here which seem random at first eventually morph into belonging to the whole. In fact Avery seems to have caught on to this in 4 months judging from her response to my question, What Do You Like About This Blog?

Avery wrote:

“The humor, unpretentiousness, richness and depth of applied astrology, the community of personalities who gravitate here, the continuity and cohesiveness. I’ve only been reading your blog for about four months…”

But sometimes I like to lay it out.

Continue reading Fear And Family Patterns

I didn’t mean to upset or worry people with the blog about Saturn transiting conjunct everyone’s Pluto. It just occurred to me that we as a collective are going to experience this and in an order that is predictable. My thought was that the elders… people who have Pluto in Leo could reassure the next generation, the Pluto in Virgo people who are going through this now which would give the Pluto in Libra folk a heads up, early warning. Instead I created a fear-fest to some degree and for that I apologize and want to try harder.

Continue reading Saturn Transit Conjunct Natal Pluto: An Apology And Some Clarification

Saturn = fear and depression… cold weather – Mercury = driving and the mind – Moon = Mood

“I’m nervous,” I said. “Very nervous.”

“Why? How come?”

“I have a long drive tomorrow, bad, bad conditions. I am worried about getting home and how it’s going to be once I get there. I am afraid I will spiral down.”

“Don’t spiral down.”

Continue reading Saturn in Virgo Square Moon, Mercury In Sagittarius: Fear Of Driving And Depression

Rhonda writes on the Liars In The Zodiac blog:

“Keeping secrets is a survival mechanism for the id.”

Interesting. I am only partly aware of why I keep so much from the soldier. If I told you my reasons they would be valid but they would also be surface like the tip of the iceberg. I don’t think I am going to have time this lifetime to visit this at any depth but I can tell you this: The things I keep from him are strange and I keep them from him and only him.

Now this is a Venus Neptune thing:- I conceal my tastes from him. I never pick a movie for example. We watch his movies only (80% war and 20% love stories). He would be happy to watch any movie I’d choose but I refuse to choose a movie for what it would reveal.

In contrast, my ex, the AMF and I would watch movies all the time. We’d see two or three a week at least and I would pick virtually every one of them. Go figure.

Continue reading Liars In The Zodiac Redux: What Type Things Do You Conceal Or Keep Secret And Why?

It’s been a big day around here… maybe it shows. Personally, transiting Saturn is leaving my 7th house for my 8th and Pluto, leaving my 11th for my 12th. Now both these transits are dreaded, but I am feeling pretty good especially about Saturn through the 8th.

I am feeling good because I am old enough I have already had Saturn transit my 8th house so I feel equipped. I have not had Pluto transit my 12th though and seeing as my astrology books have been packed for almost 4 years now, I googled “Pluto transit 12th house” and this is what I got… really the only offering:

“Pluto through the 12th house- This transit can either be for better or worse. At worst, powerful and deadly enemies can enter into one’s life, long term incarceration and imprisonment, diseases that are long lasting and/or permanent, isolation.

The person, at this time, may have an intense desire to be alone, or this can be forced upon one, through circumstances. There can be restriction and confinement, mentally or physically.”

Oh for Godsakes! 1 in 12 people have Pluto transiting their 12th house. Do you see 1/12 of the people around you locked in jail with the key thrown away, body parts rotting off as people plot against them? ::shakes head::

I am going to make a point of writing about this transit so when people search they can pull up some sanity, you think? We can start today.

If you have had Pluto transit your 12th house and did not become riddled with leprosy and go crazy in quarantine, please let us know.

pictured: Rembrandt. Portrait of a Noble (Oriental) Man. 1632. Oil on canvas. The Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York, USA. Art historians believe this painting depicts the Biblical King Uzziah, who was stricken with leprosy for usurping the authority of the Temple priests. c. 1639

Talking to the soldier:

“Well I’m glad you wrote. When I saw your name come up in my email, I was instantly happy. I was really glad. And I had no idea all this other stuff. I didn’t know I was dying but as soon as I saw your name, I knew it would be a good mail. You know. It wouldn’t be scathing.”

“Now why in the world would I ever send you a scathing email? ” He laughed. Continue reading The Soldier Reaches Out – Part 4: Beware The Mail