Dear Marriage,

Well, you sound perfectly miserable. I’m sure I would be same if I were married to a depressed man who threw our money away, while leaving me to shrivel up and die on the vine in the bed.

As to whose fault it is… well obviously, you have a very difficult partner here. However it was you who picked him. And why is that?  You may as well stay until you can figure this out and with that I can probably help.

Continue reading Astrology-Based Advice: Gambling Addict Husband Is Depressed, Second Marriage On The Rocks

From the boards – Are You Psychic About Your Life?

I wrote:

“…I walked away from my childhood home when I was 15 years old, wearing a sundress and a pair of rubber sandals that cost 33 cents (3 for $1). I did not have a dime… or a purse for that matter. I left on impulse too. No planning, not a stitch.

I literally wanted to go and 3 minutes later I left and I KNEW I would make it. I had a back up plan (die) but I really knew I would be able to pull it off and I did…”

Continue reading Saturn In Astrology: What Is The Nature Of Your Fear?

Understanding the basis of the Saturn return can go a long way towards easing fear… the first Saturn square.

Skip to Part 6 – Puberty!

Another example of an individual’s Saturn Return – my own. You have to face your fears rather than respond to other people’s fears. Place boundaries, take a long term view… and most importantly – Be true to yourself.

Skip to Part 4 – A Classic Case

It was the strangest thing. I was out walking as I’m prone to do. I walk around the neighborhood and on the trails in the nearby park when weather permits just to clear my head and never give it much thought. But the other day I was out there and as I walked by 3 boys / men, I felt afraid.

The men were maybe 17-20 years old and doing nothing to threaten to me. They were just standing alongside the path chatting but I could not stop the reality from dawning on me – I was at their mercy.
Continue reading Astrology And Trends: Pluto In Capricorn And Unconcious Fear In The Collective Ready To Erupt

I have a strong Saturn / Neptune signature in my chart. It is chronically and constantly in play… I have to cope with a constantly appearing and disappearing reality as as attuned and aware of this as I may be, sometimes things happen that truly boggle.

Saturn rules fear and mixed with Neptune (Saturn in Pisces, Saturn in the 12th, Saturn and Neptune in aspect, Saturn in the 10th etc.), hologram fear is always part of the picture.

On the flip side a person will deny or erase their fear and it is quite a phenomena when you witness it up close.  The veil lifting that is. The veil that separates a person from reality, that is.  Last night I was lying in bed with the soldier, chatting.

“Squash me like a bug,” I said.  “Oh no. You could squash me like a bug if you wanted to.”

Continue reading Saturn, Neptune And The Denial Of Reality – What Happens When The Veil Lifts?

According to his profile, Vladimir Kooperman is a Sagittarian but how’s this for an image of Capricorn fear?

Check out the whole series, Sharmo… what a talent!

and thanks, Dina, for the link.

foxxy writes on Disturbing Scorpio
“Well, you tell some pretty visceral stories. I’ve had to go walk around after some.”

foxxy – that’s interesting. Because although HQ worked on editing it with me (a slow painful process w/ Saturn in my 6th), when it was done and he read it through, he did so while walking and/or riding the subway around NY.  I wonder if this has to do with my Mars Mercury. You’ve just got to move.

Continue reading “What Am I To Do With My Power?” Saturn Transit To Pluto In Virgo Wants To Know

The soldier and I have recreated the same conditions now as we had when we were kids on many fronts. For one thing, he does not come near my job.

When we were kids, I literally forbade him to come to my job (I was a bartender). I used to talk and tell stories all day long… I was completely free and did not want to feel the restriction I do when in his presence, through no fault of his own. It was this and the fact that when you are a bartender, men stare at you all day. I figured he wouldn’t like that so it would just be easier if he stayed away.
Continue reading Recreating The Past, Hologram Fears And Pride

Kingsley writes on Men, Women. Venus And Mars In Nature:

“Jealousy is the anger about the prospect (scare) of being rejected. It could be a way in which you keep together Elsa. It would be very easy for either of you to get each other angry if you needed to do that. When I say angry, that could mean passionate too; to constantly live in the “now” of the relationship. In a way that may help to reinforce your attachment with each other. I can’t see a problem with that, its just that when the relationship is going through growing pains it will helpful for the both of you to be aware of that happening.”

Continue reading Is It Jealousy? Fear? Possessiveness? Mothering Gene? Survival Instinct? I Don’t Know But It’s Primal And Belongs To The 8th House